Failure.... Or Success??
I WROTE THE MAJORITY OF THIS RANT LAST WEEK BEFORE MY COMPUTER CRASHED, GOTTA LOVE LJ WHEN IT SAVES DRAFTS FOR YOU IF YOU DONT WANT TO READ THE RANT SCROLL DOWN AND LOOK AT THE COMPARITIVELY SHORT SECTION UNDERNEATH THE NEXT SET OF BOLD LETTERING
A post not about DBSK/TVXQ or Super Junior... or anything related to them? LE GASPE!!
But its overdue and i owe it to myself to let everyone know this.
I am a failure.
I got a D in my English and Psychology A levels for the second year running because I was depressed and didn't go to lessons. (and yes i have been diagnosed with depression which i can take nothing for due to the fact im hoping to do something with my life for the next six months beside pucking up all the time)
At the beginning of this week* (enrollment week in the UK) my mum asked if i shouldnt go back to collage again and get my English and Psychology up. So i frantically started searching Universities for requirements. All the universities i wish to go to have requirements of A level grades B, B, and C. *now last week
I have; B, D, and D.
B B and C is equivalent to 280 UCAS points and at the moment I have B D and D equivalent to 240 so i have to do English again.
Problem is, its enrollment week, i haven't got anything ready and I'm running out of options. Nobody will accept me in because all the courses are full in my area. However i have only one option and if this dosent work i have serious doubts about me ever attending university;
Harrow.
Harrow is very far away from where i live, an hour and a halfs journey by train but far away from London. I have no idea how im gonna do this. I have to find my results which my mum put aside 2 years ago and bring them to Harrow on Monday, that is if i even get in without having to pay. (which i do now but...)
I have no idea if what im doing is right since i get get in contact with my mother to tell her what is going on and i have to get in TODAY or not at all.....
Since i am now 19 i have to pay, and i don't want to, so that means i have to take 2 more A2 courses so i don't have to pay. But i really dont wanna do Psychology again and Photography A2?!?!?!?!?!?
I dont need symapthies as cold as that sounds, i need help and even if anyone replies it wont help because i'll be in Harrow; applying! and going back to school get again.
I WROTE THIS ENTRY 1 WEEK AGO AND MY COMPUTER CRASHED A LOT HAS CHANGED
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Am going to an audition at Kingston Collage to do a BA in "Acting for Stage and Media"
They said i have enough points and as long as i ace the audition on Friday they might accept me and then i'll do UCAS retrospectively.
I only found this out this morning so i am a bit freaked out.
Need to get an audition peice, learn it, practice movements and speech (i have a chest infection so i cant breathe too deeply) and then get down there on Friday for 12:30.
My long ass rant up there may still apply if i dont get in.
If you read this before it turns 12:30pm On Friday the 12th of September IN ENGLAND (figure out the time difference yourself) wish me luck and send it to me!!!
am crossing my fingers toes tongue and legs (the legs are because i need to pee)
Catch ya later! (hopefully with amazing and wonderful news!!)
A post not about DBSK/TVXQ or Super Junior... or anything related to them? LE GASPE!!
But its overdue and i owe it to myself to let everyone know this.
I am a failure.
I got a D in my English and Psychology A levels for the second year running because I was depressed and didn't go to lessons. (and yes i have been diagnosed with depression which i can take nothing for due to the fact im hoping to do something with my life for the next six months beside pucking up all the time)
At the beginning of this week* (enrollment week in the UK) my mum asked if i shouldnt go back to collage again and get my English and Psychology up. So i frantically started searching Universities for requirements. All the universities i wish to go to have requirements of A level grades B, B, and C. *now last week
I have; B, D, and D.
B B and C is equivalent to 280 UCAS points and at the moment I have B D and D equivalent to 240 so i have to do English again.
Problem is, its enrollment week, i haven't got anything ready and I'm running out of options. Nobody will accept me in because all the courses are full in my area. However i have only one option and if this dosent work i have serious doubts about me ever attending university;
Harrow.
Harrow is very far away from where i live, an hour and a halfs journey by train but far away from London. I have no idea how im gonna do this. I have to find my results which my mum put aside 2 years ago and bring them to Harrow on Monday, that is if i even get in without having to pay. (which i do now but...)
I have no idea if what im doing is right since i get get in contact with my mother to tell her what is going on and i have to get in TODAY or not at all.....
Since i am now 19 i have to pay, and i don't want to, so that means i have to take 2 more A2 courses so i don't have to pay. But i really dont wanna do Psychology again and Photography A2?!?!?!?!?!?
I dont need symapthies as cold as that sounds, i need help and even if anyone replies it wont help because i'll be in Harrow; applying! and going back to school get again.
I WROTE THIS ENTRY 1 WEEK AGO AND MY COMPUTER CRASHED A LOT HAS CHANGED
________________________________________________
Am going to an audition at Kingston Collage to do a BA in "Acting for Stage and Media"
They said i have enough points and as long as i ace the audition on Friday they might accept me and then i'll do UCAS retrospectively.
I only found this out this morning so i am a bit freaked out.
Need to get an audition peice, learn it, practice movements and speech (i have a chest infection so i cant breathe too deeply) and then get down there on Friday for 12:30.
My long ass rant up there may still apply if i dont get in.
If you read this before it turns 12:30pm On Friday the 12th of September IN ENGLAND (figure out the time difference yourself) wish me luck and send it to me!!!
am crossing my fingers toes tongue and legs (the legs are because i need to pee)
Catch ya later! (hopefully with amazing and wonderful news!!)