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this is the first time in a really long time it seems, that I've had the chance to sit down and had the wherewithal to collect my thoughts in order to write anything comprehensible...
I've been feeling kind of strange lately...a new feeling has taken up residence in my chest and everytime I notice that it's there I get a sense of wonder and surprise, and also of nervousness as the feeling is one that I don't want to lose...it's something close to happy, but maybe more than happy...it's like happiness, giddiness, contentment and a bursting sense of hope all mixed together...it appeared a week after the depressive slump I found myself in post the Weekend Of The Guitar Trashing...I'd been completely miserable and unable to pull my socks (they kept falling down again) until, out of the blue, we had one of the best Hooligan Night gigs we've ever had at an amazing party in a mutated pub/party venue in Shoreditch...I generally find performing an incredibly cathartic experience, but this took it to a whole new level as a week of disappointment and frustration came pouring out, transfiguring itself through the mediums of a Rock N Roll, a rocking outfit and a healthy splash of tequila into a wave of pure performing adrenalin...the next thing I knew I was on top of a DJ booth, howling at the moon with a room full of people just going crazy on our songs and experiencing, once more, the closest thing to pure, undiluted freedom that I've ever known...after the gig, I floated through the party on a pink cloud of post-gig-coital satisfaction, talking to everyone, drinking the bar and riding Joe (in rubber horse mask) around the dancefloor until the sun came up and I padded/staggered back to Cordy House in my stockinged feet.
pretty much since then me and Nik have been doing 9 hour days in our fabulous new studio on Redchurch St, rerecording a selection of our best tracks for our Demo, laying down new vocals, live drums, keyboards and even trumpets, finally after so long managing to recreate our live sound in the sudio. we've also been working on a couple of new tracks (and I think our best to date) and the tracks are sounding 100% more alive and fucking good if I do say so myself...we had a very exciting meeting last thursday with a fabulous producer, who does quite a few big name artists including Bloc Party and VV Brown...it was kind of a big deal as he was the first person in the 'industry' we'd shown our stuff to...I don't know what I was expecting, but his response blew me away and has ended up resulting in some seriously exciting potential things happening for the band in the not-so-distant...I wont say too much yet, but I'm thrilled to the tips of my toes and just wishinghopingwishing right now...for the first time the Big Dream seems almost close.
what else has been happening...I've been so lost in music the last two weeks everything kind of seems a bit of a blur...me and Nik have started communicating in our own weird studio language things have got so weird!...there's been some gloriously sunny spring mornings...there's been some funny gigs at Volupté & TG...some drinking benders with the boys...and some trips to Brighton...some hanging out in the spa with Mouse...walks in the countryside and delectable pub lunches with the ever-delightful Aya...beautiful blossom everywhere...some hot pink lipstick...and toasted Haloumi sandwiches...and a whole load of other things that have been making me feel fluttery with pleasure...
I don't know how long this feeling will last...I'm so scared of the transience of this kind of happiness...but at the same time I'm so grateful just to be riding a wave of it for the time being...
birds flyin high, you know how I feel...
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this is the first time in a really long time it seems, that I've had the chance to sit down and had the wherewithal to collect my thoughts in order to write anything comprehensible...
I've been feeling kind of strange lately...a new feeling has taken up residence in my chest and everytime I notice that it's there I get a sense of wonder and surprise, and also of nervousness as the feeling is one that I don't want to lose...it's something close to happy, but maybe more than happy...it's like happiness, giddiness, contentment and a bursting sense of hope all mixed together...it appeared a week after the depressive slump I found myself in post the Weekend Of The Guitar Trashing...I'd been completely miserable and unable to pull my socks (they kept falling down again) until, out of the blue, we had one of the best Hooligan Night gigs we've ever had at an amazing party in a mutated pub/party venue in Shoreditch...I generally find performing an incredibly cathartic experience, but this took it to a whole new level as a week of disappointment and frustration came pouring out, transfiguring itself through the mediums of a Rock N Roll, a rocking outfit and a healthy splash of tequila into a wave of pure performing adrenalin...the next thing I knew I was on top of a DJ booth, howling at the moon with a room full of people just going crazy on our songs and experiencing, once more, the closest thing to pure, undiluted freedom that I've ever known...after the gig, I floated through the party on a pink cloud of post-gig-coital satisfaction, talking to everyone, drinking the bar and riding Joe (in rubber horse mask) around the dancefloor until the sun came up and I padded/staggered back to Cordy House in my stockinged feet.
pretty much since then me and Nik have been doing 9 hour days in our fabulous new studio on Redchurch St, rerecording a selection of our best tracks for our Demo, laying down new vocals, live drums, keyboards and even trumpets, finally after so long managing to recreate our live sound in the sudio. we've also been working on a couple of new tracks (and I think our best to date) and the tracks are sounding 100% more alive and fucking good if I do say so myself...we had a very exciting meeting last thursday with a fabulous producer, who does quite a few big name artists including Bloc Party and VV Brown...it was kind of a big deal as he was the first person in the 'industry' we'd shown our stuff to...I don't know what I was expecting, but his response blew me away and has ended up resulting in some seriously exciting potential things happening for the band in the not-so-distant...I wont say too much yet, but I'm thrilled to the tips of my toes and just wishinghopingwishing right now...for the first time the Big Dream seems almost close.
what else has been happening...I've been so lost in music the last two weeks everything kind of seems a bit of a blur...me and Nik have started communicating in our own weird studio language things have got so weird!...there's been some gloriously sunny spring mornings...there's been some funny gigs at Volupté & TG...some drinking benders with the boys...and some trips to Brighton...some hanging out in the spa with Mouse...walks in the countryside and delectable pub lunches with the ever-delightful Aya...beautiful blossom everywhere...some hot pink lipstick...and toasted Haloumi sandwiches...and a whole load of other things that have been making me feel fluttery with pleasure...
I don't know how long this feeling will last...I'm so scared of the transience of this kind of happiness...but at the same time I'm so grateful just to be riding a wave of it for the time being...
birds flyin high, you know how I feel...
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