where are you going tonight?

[rubixcube_]

There's no way to go back.
No way to young again.
I can't.

I can't do high school again,
That would be weird.
For all of us.

I can't romance for the first time,
Not the same way.
It wouldn't feel right.

I can only remember.
These things and all the others.

I can only hope that the things ahead,
Can be like things behind.
But better.
Definitely better.

I always wanted a girlfriend to make mixtapes for.
I never knew a gal I could do that for.
I don't think it's too cheesy or too late to do it now.

It's easier to be someone else, when I'm not here.
Someone else, or just myself.
Not sure which is which,
Or where is where.

I try to be sincere.
But sincerity is hard to pull off.
It's easier to be funny,
Or a jerk.
Usually both.

Most people I know.
That I got to know in the last few years.
Don't know me at all.
Or they know me too well.
I don't know what's the difference anymore.
I'm still getting to know me.

Where can I go,
That is a place,
That I can just become,
Everything I want.

I don't know.
I'm still looking.