Faith has been broken, tears must be cried....
In kind of a wierd mood right now.... Been in one all evening really. I tried napping it off, but didn't succeed.
I've been kinda stressed out lately about a multitude of things that I've been attempting to push aside with all my strength, but for some reason every single one of them, with the addition of a few new ones, are hitting me two fold at the moment and I'm having trouble dealing with it.
My biggest problem is that I can't seem to get myself to actually go to anyone about any of the things that are eating away at me. I'm aware that there are a multitude of people that would take the time to listen to me in a heartbeat, and wouldn't judge me one bit no matter what i had to say. But for some reason I just have this aversion to actually opening up to anyone about it. This is possibly because I don't fully understand all of the things bothering myself....and if I don't even understand them, how can I expect someone else to??
I'm going home for the day tomorrow and I'm actually really looking forward to it. I miss home alot. Especially my mom. I can't wait to get away from some of the things here and spend the day with her.... what makes me kinda sad though is while I usually am beyond anxious to get back to school after a visit home.... I really think its gonna be a struggle for me to come back tomorrow.
Blahhh.
Is is it time for spring break yet?? I need it to be. Ocean City hopefully for part of the week....then my cousins from north carolina are coming to visit and I can't wait to see them. I may not even go to Ocean City at all..... i kinda just want to spend the time at home. Well.... we'll see how I'm feeling then. Perhaps my mood right now is just slight homesickness....or PMS...or something....
I guess thats all.
Bye.
PS: Once again I wish people would talk to me about my opinions/feelings.....and not just assume that they know what I think.
Grrrrr.
.....I'll be a laughing daffodil and leave the silly cared that fill my mind behind me.....
I've been kinda stressed out lately about a multitude of things that I've been attempting to push aside with all my strength, but for some reason every single one of them, with the addition of a few new ones, are hitting me two fold at the moment and I'm having trouble dealing with it.
My biggest problem is that I can't seem to get myself to actually go to anyone about any of the things that are eating away at me. I'm aware that there are a multitude of people that would take the time to listen to me in a heartbeat, and wouldn't judge me one bit no matter what i had to say. But for some reason I just have this aversion to actually opening up to anyone about it. This is possibly because I don't fully understand all of the things bothering myself....and if I don't even understand them, how can I expect someone else to??
I'm going home for the day tomorrow and I'm actually really looking forward to it. I miss home alot. Especially my mom. I can't wait to get away from some of the things here and spend the day with her.... what makes me kinda sad though is while I usually am beyond anxious to get back to school after a visit home.... I really think its gonna be a struggle for me to come back tomorrow.
Blahhh.
Is is it time for spring break yet?? I need it to be. Ocean City hopefully for part of the week....then my cousins from north carolina are coming to visit and I can't wait to see them. I may not even go to Ocean City at all..... i kinda just want to spend the time at home. Well.... we'll see how I'm feeling then. Perhaps my mood right now is just slight homesickness....or PMS...or something....
I guess thats all.
Bye.
PS: Once again I wish people would talk to me about my opinions/feelings.....and not just assume that they know what I think.
Grrrrr.
.....I'll be a laughing daffodil and leave the silly cared that fill my mind behind me.....