Stir-Crazy
I have experienced what it is to be stir crazy. It's feels a lot like you are Jack Nicholson in "The Shining".
So, did something crazy to my hip. Can't walk anywhere, no car or bus money. So last night, I just snapped after being in the house for nearly two weeks except for one trip to the hospital to check out my hip. (They don't know what is wrong, by the way. They think I pulled the tendon attaching the muscle to my bone. But it was hurting before it went all crazy, and it spread to my other hip. I just pray it isn't something degenerative.)
Anyway, here's how it feels: First, you just want to rip the face off of everyone you are cooped up with. You wander around in a sour mood, and then you like... just snap. I didn't hurt anyone, I have more self control with that, but the thought of another night sitting around and wondering how to spend my time (also, been having trouble drawing, and drawing is my life, so you can imagine how I felt)I just broke down sobbing. I couldn't stop for like, two hours. I had such a headache afterwards. I hunkered down afterwards and watching Lord of the Rings for awhile. It kept me busy for like... 4 hours. However the fuck long that movie is. XD
I managed to hobble over to Fi's after she invited me over, and I am feeling much better already.
Well, my willpower sucks. Now I know I can't EVER be caught... in like a cabin buried under an avalanche. I really would kill someone then. XD
Hope ya'll are doing all right. I joined MySpace. Don't know why. Maybe in hopes of making friends with cars in Denver who'd be willing to deal with my money-less, car-less ass. Oh, looking for a job (STILL) this hip thing has made it difficult, though...
Also, under fire for check fraud. But I knew what would happen when I wrote those checks, so I'm not surprised. Just a little stressed. Well, I wrote them to feed my family, so... ya know. It was a noble cause. I don't feel that bad. I've just resolved that I refuse to go to jail for feeding my family. BUT I HAVE TO PAY FUCKING $200 for a ONE DAY Money accountability class! Is that not criminal?? I think so. Why would I write a bad check if I had the money to pay that much in the first place?
Fucking bureaucrats.
So, did something crazy to my hip. Can't walk anywhere, no car or bus money. So last night, I just snapped after being in the house for nearly two weeks except for one trip to the hospital to check out my hip. (They don't know what is wrong, by the way. They think I pulled the tendon attaching the muscle to my bone. But it was hurting before it went all crazy, and it spread to my other hip. I just pray it isn't something degenerative.)
Anyway, here's how it feels: First, you just want to rip the face off of everyone you are cooped up with. You wander around in a sour mood, and then you like... just snap. I didn't hurt anyone, I have more self control with that, but the thought of another night sitting around and wondering how to spend my time (also, been having trouble drawing, and drawing is my life, so you can imagine how I felt)I just broke down sobbing. I couldn't stop for like, two hours. I had such a headache afterwards. I hunkered down afterwards and watching Lord of the Rings for awhile. It kept me busy for like... 4 hours. However the fuck long that movie is. XD
I managed to hobble over to Fi's after she invited me over, and I am feeling much better already.
Well, my willpower sucks. Now I know I can't EVER be caught... in like a cabin buried under an avalanche. I really would kill someone then. XD
Hope ya'll are doing all right. I joined MySpace. Don't know why. Maybe in hopes of making friends with cars in Denver who'd be willing to deal with my money-less, car-less ass. Oh, looking for a job (STILL) this hip thing has made it difficult, though...
Also, under fire for check fraud. But I knew what would happen when I wrote those checks, so I'm not surprised. Just a little stressed. Well, I wrote them to feed my family, so... ya know. It was a noble cause. I don't feel that bad. I've just resolved that I refuse to go to jail for feeding my family. BUT I HAVE TO PAY FUCKING $200 for a ONE DAY Money accountability class! Is that not criminal?? I think so. Why would I write a bad check if I had the money to pay that much in the first place?
Fucking bureaucrats.