new cd's and new feelings
so i bought the carrie underwood cd...mad props carrie, yer cd is the shiznit. so i've been thinking a lot this past week. just about life. i really can't wait for next year.i think it is finally hitting me, that i actually DO havea future ahead of me. inever thought thati would get into college or go off on my own. my sisters stuck around because they were scared. i'm scared..but excited at the same time. i just wanna leave this place and start over. iwanna make something of myself. i didn't quite get to do that here. i didn't change anything, i'm no different now than i was when i first moved here. i'm still as skeptacle and cynical as ever. i'm so tired of boys. they are way overrated, and i'm tired of dealing with them. i'm tired of feeling worthless. i just wanna feel like i mean something to someone. iwill not let my happiness depend on any guy, because i know that i will be unhappy for al ong time if i do that. so here's how it's gotta be. i'm over it. i can't feel this way about him anymore cuz it is only hurtingme. so i'm gonna do friends. i can be friends, and feel about him only like a friend. maybe life will get easier now...who knows? anyways...gonna go take a nap before harry potter later. peace out