Holding on.
Some big idea seems to be mixed up in all this. It's not about glorifying drugs or drug culture, the show's red herring. Mr. Schimmel writes about the appeal of Ecstasy to clubgoers and ravers in the 90's. It provided, he says, "intense feelings of connectedness with one's companions and with humanity in general." He continues, "This experience is not about the hippie ethos of 'Turn on, tune in, drop out,' but about overcoming the isolation of contemporary life - the pervasive sense of disconnectedness that is to some degree due to the failure of hippie ideals, to the cynicism and greed that followed the dissolution of 1960's counterculture."
We're here. I start the morning with a review (maybe the 2nd or 3rd I've seen?) on the psychodelia art exhibition in Los Angeles. (Is this the same one I heard about 6 months ago or a new one?). If I do get down to LA again, I should go see it. I could use the experience. Frankly, I could use the disconnection. Although there is something meta about specifically going down to LA and going somewhere to go somewhere else. If that makes sense.
I dreamed that I lived in a combination of my work layout and my old dorm at MIT. And I had been out for a year, but now I wanted a dorm room closest to the server room in case there were any problems.
Work is consuming me. Thankfully I have enough support there that I can move a few mountains if I need to. I've tried to be very careful not to do so, because that's not my style, but in this case I hope it was for the better. Regardless, I'm starting to hit the alcohol. ...
...I've been avoiding that for a long time, because my family has a history of hitting the alcohol and staying there. I'm going to have to be careful.
...frankly I'd prefer something else, but I don't know those sorts of people, and that's probably for the best.
I am seriously pondering trying to throw the psychology gantlet again. Maybe. ...our health system is not exactly built to be comforting. But that was a reason I bought the cell phone in the first place.
We're here. I start the morning with a review (maybe the 2nd or 3rd I've seen?) on the psychodelia art exhibition in Los Angeles. (Is this the same one I heard about 6 months ago or a new one?). If I do get down to LA again, I should go see it. I could use the experience. Frankly, I could use the disconnection. Although there is something meta about specifically going down to LA and going somewhere to go somewhere else. If that makes sense.
I dreamed that I lived in a combination of my work layout and my old dorm at MIT. And I had been out for a year, but now I wanted a dorm room closest to the server room in case there were any problems.
Work is consuming me. Thankfully I have enough support there that I can move a few mountains if I need to. I've tried to be very careful not to do so, because that's not my style, but in this case I hope it was for the better. Regardless, I'm starting to hit the alcohol. ...
...I've been avoiding that for a long time, because my family has a history of hitting the alcohol and staying there. I'm going to have to be careful.
...frankly I'd prefer something else, but I don't know those sorts of people, and that's probably for the best.
I am seriously pondering trying to throw the psychology gantlet again. Maybe. ...our health system is not exactly built to be comforting. But that was a reason I bought the cell phone in the first place.