Things I can't tell you...
I know that you are scared. I'm scared too. Way more scared than I let on, I can promise you that. I'm going to share with you the best piece of advice that I was ever given. "In order to find true happiness, you have to take risks. When you put it all on the line, knowing that you could be left with a whole lot of nothing, but getting even more in return? That's happiness. But unless you are willing to take that first step, you will never find it." I want you to know that I am ready and willing to risk it all for you. I want to be everything to you and for you. And I am certainly willing to do anything to prove it to you. I am sure if you ever read this, you would find this so hard to believe, and I find it hard to believe that I feel this way too. But the fact of the matter is that I do, and I wish that you'd understand I am sincere in what I say. You have done so much for me, and I know you don't realize it. From the month we've been talking(it'll be a month on the 18th actually), you have made me realize the type of person I'd like to be. But I need you to help me get there. I honestly and truly believe that you are a God-send. You walked into my life at the perfect time, just when I needed someone like you. Some days, it seems like things are so great, and we are so comfortable together, like the other night, at dinner and during the movie. Other days, it seems like you walked in but you are just awkwardly standing in the doorway, just waiting for an excuse to leave. In reference to another date we had...everyone is entitled to their pursuit of happYness, and I know that with you, I have found it. I just wish I knew what you wanted. If you would tell me, I'd do anything I could to do it. I just don't understand how you can't see what you mean to me. I know you don't believe that you mean this much to me, but one day, I promise you that I will show you everything I've said is true.