i really don't know life.. at all
Things have been feeling really unreal lately.. i can't believe someone else i've known is dead. i've always had that notion that nothing could ever happen to myself or anyone around me, and when it did about a month ago it was really hard to grasp the idea that horrible things happen to good people. that month i went to the first wake i've ever been to and it wasn't what i expected. I expected to walk up and see danny looking.. well, dead. But i went up and it looked like he was asleep. exactly, as if i poked him he'd jump up and scare me. then it hit me that although he looked asleep, he'd never wake up again. it was really hard. i guess that prepared me for this news about anthony, but i still feel like i'll walk into homeroom next year and he'd be there and say hi to me. he could be extremely stupid sometimes, but it was the kind of stupid that was loveable. i've known this kid since 6th grade and i hate when people suddenly become best friends with a person after they're gone, but i really did talk to him. I remember i saw him in an airport in las vegas, and he came up and was like, "shannon!" and he shook my parents hands. It was all really weird but it was good to see him then. i can't accept that he's.. gone. of all the people i'd think would end up like that, he'd be the last. I saw him two days ago, for chrissakes. It's all very weird feeling. numb. I wonder how danielle is. I've heard shes in critical condition but still, that fact that you were the one driving.. i hope shes okay.