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[rubber_duckie09]

So I think I messed up pretty bad last night. I got a phone call last night at 1am, when I was sleeping, that should never of taken. It seems the guy who was always there for me, now isn't. He has a girlfriend. I know even if I didn't answer the phone I would of found out anyways, regardless of the time or place. I can sum it all up in five words: my saftey net is gone. I don't know excatly how I feel about that at this moment. Something tells me that I'm better off without him. The whole relationship deal was based on not much at all really. So I got over him, not in the way that I wanted to, that would bring me piece of mind, but in another way, a way that if they break up I'm sure I haven't heard the last from him. But hopefully by then, I'll be stronger towards him.

But for now I'm going to go to this meeting I have at one today, have lunch with my mom and aunt, then turn my taxes in out in Grand Blanc. I'll do this with a dazed look on my face, but really what can you expect? I just have that feeling of settling. I know I can do better, but why in this moment does it feel like I can't? and that he is the kind of guy I will be attracting and dating the rest of my life?

Happy thought are what I need right now. Well I am going to my favorite mexican resturant. But none of my friends are here, the people that no matter how bad life can get they are there and they can help you get through anything.