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The wedding is coming up, I am excited and scared all at once. I'm not scared about actually being married, I know I am ready, but lately my health has been not good, and it freaks me out a little bit. Went to the doctor's, and they ran some tests, don't have the results back yet, and have to go to the gyno next week, so I have been a little on edge. Yesterday, I woke up in so much pain, and I was scared of not knowing what is going on, that I was crying uncontrollably, Rob came over to be with me, and my mom and he took care of me. I calmed down a bit after that, but I have been missing so much work lately too, that I don't know what they will do. They have had coverage, mainly thanks to Rob, but I still don't know how they feel about it, managers and employees don't really get that in depth there, unless you are up their ass or in one of their little clicks. But I think I am going to talk to one of the female managers there, she is pretty cool, nice and usually pretty understanding, I just want to tell her my concerns, and see how management feels about it.
I just want the wedding to go well, I don't look the way I wanted to for it, my weight has been up and down a lot lately, I think it is from stress, so I just hope my dress still fits. My face has been breaking out really bad, and my arms aren't as toned as I want them to be. I know, I should quit whining, but I have to vent a little. I wasn't able to tan because of the medicine I am on too, so I will be lil pasty me :) As long as I show up in the pictures I guess it is ok. I feel bad too, because Rob is stressed and tired from work, he is working full time now, which is great, we will get coverage in a couple of months and he has guaranteed hours now. Despite all of that, he has still been so great, putting me first, and always treating me good, I just hope he knows how much I appreciate him and all he does for us. Plus, we still have to move to a bigger apartment too, so that will be poopy. We were going to go to Chicago, but we are just going to go somewhere around here for right now to save money, and to get some things done here. I just don't want there to be a damper on the wedding because of my health issues, and I hope I can be with him on our wedding night, I don't even know if that is possible yet. Ok, I think I have done enough venting, so I will stop now. If anyone here prays, pray for me, and Rob, and that our wedding will be great :)
I just want the wedding to go well, I don't look the way I wanted to for it, my weight has been up and down a lot lately, I think it is from stress, so I just hope my dress still fits. My face has been breaking out really bad, and my arms aren't as toned as I want them to be. I know, I should quit whining, but I have to vent a little. I wasn't able to tan because of the medicine I am on too, so I will be lil pasty me :) As long as I show up in the pictures I guess it is ok. I feel bad too, because Rob is stressed and tired from work, he is working full time now, which is great, we will get coverage in a couple of months and he has guaranteed hours now. Despite all of that, he has still been so great, putting me first, and always treating me good, I just hope he knows how much I appreciate him and all he does for us. Plus, we still have to move to a bigger apartment too, so that will be poopy. We were going to go to Chicago, but we are just going to go somewhere around here for right now to save money, and to get some things done here. I just don't want there to be a damper on the wedding because of my health issues, and I hope I can be with him on our wedding night, I don't even know if that is possible yet. Ok, I think I have done enough venting, so I will stop now. If anyone here prays, pray for me, and Rob, and that our wedding will be great :)