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so, pretty much I have realized that i am not worth very much to anyone...
he says: i should never have let you go...i love you
i say: [insert something dumb that makes me fall head over heels again]
he says: come see me...i want to treat you right
i say: [okay]
[insert fun and fairly normal visit]
now commences the ignoring...the no phone calls...no returned texts...when the phone is answered when i call, they must get off the phone almost immediately...i leave a comment for him on myspace and it is deleted immediately...
and here i sit...wondering why he is doing this to me? why doesn't he love me? why do i still care so much????
he treats me like this and i can't help but think to myself "well...maybe i am just reading too much into it...maybe he's having a bad day...if you blow this you have no one..." better to have someone that treats you like poop than to have no one at all right? (PLEASE don't answer that...because i have heard it all...it's up to me now)
i just wish i knew if there was someone for me that would treat me like i was their world...someone who would share their life with me and pour their heart out for me...
someone that didn't lie...
he says: i should never have let you go...i love you
i say: [insert something dumb that makes me fall head over heels again]
he says: come see me...i want to treat you right
i say: [okay]
[insert fun and fairly normal visit]
now commences the ignoring...the no phone calls...no returned texts...when the phone is answered when i call, they must get off the phone almost immediately...i leave a comment for him on myspace and it is deleted immediately...
and here i sit...wondering why he is doing this to me? why doesn't he love me? why do i still care so much????
he treats me like this and i can't help but think to myself "well...maybe i am just reading too much into it...maybe he's having a bad day...if you blow this you have no one..." better to have someone that treats you like poop than to have no one at all right? (PLEASE don't answer that...because i have heard it all...it's up to me now)
i just wish i knew if there was someone for me that would treat me like i was their world...someone who would share their life with me and pour their heart out for me...
someone that didn't lie...