I Was So Wrong
It sucks to realize that someone who you thought knew you incredibly well doesn't really know you at all. That in and of itself is bad enough, but when that person makes an incorrect judgment of your character after having known you for quite some time, it really sucks. Super sucks. Mega sucks.
It feels like the years that were invested into a friendship were wasted. They suddenly mean nothing at all. It was like they never even happened. All over something so downright silly, something stupid that spawned a lot of other things that went deeper than the original incident. Maybe I do take things too personally. Maybe I should just get over what was said and take it as an "honest" mistake.
But I take something like that and I view it as a serious problem. I don't behave that way. I don't play manipulation games. I'm not malicious. I don't do things to make my friends look like jerks. Why would I? Why would I spend so much time and energy on friendships only to do things on purpose to hurt them? It makes no sense at all to me and that's what makes me upset. It makes me not want to bothrer with people at all. It's one more piece of evidence why I should just crawl into my cave under a bridge and live like a troll, removed from the rest of society because I'm misanthropic.
I need to go to bed. I woke up too early this morning with too much on my mind to allow me to go back to sleep.
¤Mary¤
Quote of the Day: "Midnight, lock all the doors and turn out the lights. It feels like the end of the world this Sunday night." ~ from the song Quiet, performed by John Mayer
It feels like the years that were invested into a friendship were wasted. They suddenly mean nothing at all. It was like they never even happened. All over something so downright silly, something stupid that spawned a lot of other things that went deeper than the original incident. Maybe I do take things too personally. Maybe I should just get over what was said and take it as an "honest" mistake.
But I take something like that and I view it as a serious problem. I don't behave that way. I don't play manipulation games. I'm not malicious. I don't do things to make my friends look like jerks. Why would I? Why would I spend so much time and energy on friendships only to do things on purpose to hurt them? It makes no sense at all to me and that's what makes me upset. It makes me not want to bothrer with people at all. It's one more piece of evidence why I should just crawl into my cave under a bridge and live like a troll, removed from the rest of society because I'm misanthropic.
I need to go to bed. I woke up too early this morning with too much on my mind to allow me to go back to sleep.
¤Mary¤
Quote of the Day: "Midnight, lock all the doors and turn out the lights. It feels like the end of the world this Sunday night." ~ from the song Quiet, performed by John Mayer