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im so annoyed right now. this week was great, but the weekend sucks. lydia and kayla left for st louis, so im alone on this side of the house. everyone and their mother is out right now, and im studying...... because its finals week next week. im not annoyed that im not going out, but that i dont have anyone to go out with. i havent talked to anyone in 2 days, and i dont want to drive because my car is acting crazy. i have to take it in monday, because im not driving home, when its being weird. im so paranoid about car stuff 1) because i dont know anything about them 2) because i got stranded once in the middle of nowhere in a thunderstorm on a holiday weekend in my pjs and my cell phone was almost dead and my dad got to me before AAA. 3) the only bad car accident ive been in has been during the winter.
anyway, i dont know where everyone is going tonite. i dont fit in because i dont drink. its like this huge shallow thing of acceptance here at this school, and especially with some people on my team. its so annoying, because i freaking plan on drinking when im 21. its not like im against it, or am condemning every college student, its just that im not choosing to do it yet. i like mike's for cryin out loud, its not like ive never done it. but im sick of people wanting me to hang out with them, when im one of the only few people not drunk. its not comfortable, i dont like it for myself.
i didnt run today because im a lazy bum, and by the time i was going to, it was dark out and i didnt feel like driving to the srsc. basically i finished one paper, started studying for a final, and finished my xmas presents and my xmas cards.
im just having one of those moments right now. i cant get out of it. i hate having those. what to do, what to
do. He's callin, and im ignoring it.
dont want to be here. dont want to be home. dont know where then.....
anyway, i dont know where everyone is going tonite. i dont fit in because i dont drink. its like this huge shallow thing of acceptance here at this school, and especially with some people on my team. its so annoying, because i freaking plan on drinking when im 21. its not like im against it, or am condemning every college student, its just that im not choosing to do it yet. i like mike's for cryin out loud, its not like ive never done it. but im sick of people wanting me to hang out with them, when im one of the only few people not drunk. its not comfortable, i dont like it for myself.
i didnt run today because im a lazy bum, and by the time i was going to, it was dark out and i didnt feel like driving to the srsc. basically i finished one paper, started studying for a final, and finished my xmas presents and my xmas cards.
im just having one of those moments right now. i cant get out of it. i hate having those. what to do, what to
do. He's callin, and im ignoring it.
dont want to be here. dont want to be home. dont know where then.....