dashboard
well as you may have noticed most of feelings can be expressed by a dashboard confessional song lol. yeah thats not really a good thing but what are you going to do...
today was kind of a bad day for me it started off with my phone not working and having to call cingular to turn it back on, so yeah that was great. and then i left my internship early and just sat in the parking lot listening to music, i just felt so depressed..blah. so anyways yeah i fell asleep in my car and woke up 30 minutes later and ended up being late for class but i had an excuse so i was all set. yeah i cant believe i fell asleep it was probably from my lack of sleep last night. i doubt i will sleep good tonight too :/ everything has just been bothering me so much and i feel so torn and so broken at the same time. its like every direction i turn its something new to deal with. and honestly i just want to be happy again, i look back at my past entries and i think one or two maybe have a positive mood. i just dont know anymore. i know what i want and i know that its not plausible (which is more than one thing) and it kills me but i dont know what to do anymore, i just dont. i feel like everything i do is wrong.
and on top of everything else i got rejected from bentley, the one school that i wanted to attend... now what do i do with my life. i thought i had it all planed out but now i know nothing
definately feel like shit right now. it seriously kills me, i try so hard and i dont know why any more cause obviously its in vain :( idk why i let people disappoint me so much. i cant do it anymore but i just dont know what to do, yet again, it seems like i never know what to do about anything and i hate it so effing much.
today was kind of a bad day for me it started off with my phone not working and having to call cingular to turn it back on, so yeah that was great. and then i left my internship early and just sat in the parking lot listening to music, i just felt so depressed..blah. so anyways yeah i fell asleep in my car and woke up 30 minutes later and ended up being late for class but i had an excuse so i was all set. yeah i cant believe i fell asleep it was probably from my lack of sleep last night. i doubt i will sleep good tonight too :/ everything has just been bothering me so much and i feel so torn and so broken at the same time. its like every direction i turn its something new to deal with. and honestly i just want to be happy again, i look back at my past entries and i think one or two maybe have a positive mood. i just dont know anymore. i know what i want and i know that its not plausible (which is more than one thing) and it kills me but i dont know what to do anymore, i just dont. i feel like everything i do is wrong.
and on top of everything else i got rejected from bentley, the one school that i wanted to attend... now what do i do with my life. i thought i had it all planed out but now i know nothing
definately feel like shit right now. it seriously kills me, i try so hard and i dont know why any more cause obviously its in vain :( idk why i let people disappoint me so much. i cant do it anymore but i just dont know what to do, yet again, it seems like i never know what to do about anything and i hate it so effing much.