One of those days

[rswolf0]

Cant sleep, you have that music playing and it doesnt help...your mind wanders everywhere...what is, what if...and why...love, beauty, happyness...these are so important to me and i have them...but i still cant sleep...maybe its because im alone...i have a great GF and when she is here my thought slow the hell down and I can focus...but when im alone they just go nuts...and when your trying to sleep...bah...i never did get why i think so much...about how i wish i could be out in the world...already in the AF...making all that cash...ive started working out though...doing my push ups and situps more...but those dont even make me tired...so i guess its time to pick up running also...i just wish sometimes my head would shut up...i think about things way to much...and it just overwelms me...its the beauty really...like i said in my last post or so...there is just so damn much in this world...it blows my mind...and all i want to do is get out and see it...but thats tough...it just cant be done..so i seek the beauty around me...and its there also...the other night i was driving and just the way the cars moved was amazing to me...its like my mind has been opened again...its been so single minded for such a long time it really is nice to be like wow....the world is fucking amazing...so maybe ill just sit here in my boxers and smoke another cig...maybe in due time my mind will shut up and i will be able to sleep...or not maybe the damn thing will use my imagination and go back in time...i will be sad...but then i slap it and look forward and im sad...so what the hell am i to do...maybe just look at where i am...and enjoy it...enjoy the good times...and why do you ask are both ways sad...i miss the past sometimes and those times are gone...and the future doesnt come fast enough..but at the same time i want to take my time and dance...sit here howling with the wolfs in my head...and hear the sorrow they sing into the night...for someone has died...but someone is born...and thus life goes on...ah well thats my joy...so maybe ill just let go..yeah that sounds nice...see you space cowboy...

Well, the rain keeps on coming down
It feels like a flood in my head
And that road keeps on calling me
Screaming to everything lying ahead

And it's a winding road
I've been walking for a long time
I still don't know
Where it goes
And it's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
I still have hope
I'm gonna find my way home

And I can see a little house
On top of the hill
And I can smell the ocean
The salt in the air
And I can see you
You're standing there
And you're washing your car
And I can see California sun in your hair

And its a winding road
I've been walking for a long time
Still don't know
Where it goes
And it's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
Still have hope
I'm gonna find my way home

All these dreams took me so far
And I felt I just couldn't go on
And I want to hang
Out the window of your car
And see just how good this baby can run

'Cause it's a winding road
I've been walking for a long time
And I still don't know
Where it goes
And it's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
Still have hope
We're gonna find our way home

It's a winding road
Still have hope
One day we'll find our way home
It's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
Still have hope
We're gonna find our way home

It's a long way home
It's a long way home