b0o!
Welp, these past 2 days at work have been quite painful. I have worked 22.5 hours in 2 days all while being incredibly sick. Today was one of the worst days ever. And tomorrow I am guaranteed at LEAST 12 more hours tomorrow, maybe more.
I got to hang out with Dani Friday and Saturday night which was cool. She's my best friend, so it was fairly easy for her to help get me out of the cranky, solemn mood I was in last week. I was very thankful. =)
I also got to hang out with the guys from work which was awesome and also my roomates through a party friday which was VERY fun, I might add.
I also started to talk to Liz, James' cousin. She is a really cool gurl and, even though I don't know her very well, it seems very easy for me to open up to her. I think we may have a lot in common (don't quote me on that but I'm sure it's true). I'm looking forward to her moving to Raleigh so we can hang out.
Some agree and some think I'm crazy, but I've decided never to get wasted or ever do drugs. It is very hard in the enviornment I am in. I'm not saying the people that do it are bad or anything like that, I just have chosen not to do that. I feel no need to join in on such events. I don't see any good consequences coming out of doing it. I don't know what it's like to do either and I don't ever plan on experiencing that.
I miss hanging out with my friends in youngsville. It's been a few weeks. I'm sure I'll see them sometime soon...I hope. Oh well.
I just got the Smile Empty Soul cd and I must say it is very good, although I can sense much anger in the album. I see a lot of myself in those lyrics...sometimes it's kind of scary. I don't want to feel that way but sometimes you can't help who you are, although I'd rather not be that person.
Ah, to find a people that accept you for who you are and do not judge or make fun *cough* of who you are and what you do. That is a good feeling. To feel comfortable around certain people and not feel like you have to conform to their ways or feel you are an outsider because you are different is really a joy and relief. There are so few people like that.
I hope I don't grow up like my parents. And yet...I see myself turning into my dad. But how can I help that? I grew up for 19 years in his footsteps so it just became habit to do what he did. However I have noticed the things that were wrong in my household growing up lately in my life and I so desire to change that so I do not make my kids suffer as I did, physically and emotionally. I know, I know, some people are gonna tell me "hey you didn't have it as bad as I did!" Well, I am really sorry they did and I am glad I didn't grow up that way. But sometimes it is worse to grow up "middle-of-the-road" with people that have two totally different sides to them so you never know what to think, how to act, what way should I be living my life? I was so confused growing up.
I think this is enough rambling for now...
I got to hang out with Dani Friday and Saturday night which was cool. She's my best friend, so it was fairly easy for her to help get me out of the cranky, solemn mood I was in last week. I was very thankful. =)
I also got to hang out with the guys from work which was awesome and also my roomates through a party friday which was VERY fun, I might add.
I also started to talk to Liz, James' cousin. She is a really cool gurl and, even though I don't know her very well, it seems very easy for me to open up to her. I think we may have a lot in common (don't quote me on that but I'm sure it's true). I'm looking forward to her moving to Raleigh so we can hang out.
Some agree and some think I'm crazy, but I've decided never to get wasted or ever do drugs. It is very hard in the enviornment I am in. I'm not saying the people that do it are bad or anything like that, I just have chosen not to do that. I feel no need to join in on such events. I don't see any good consequences coming out of doing it. I don't know what it's like to do either and I don't ever plan on experiencing that.
I miss hanging out with my friends in youngsville. It's been a few weeks. I'm sure I'll see them sometime soon...I hope. Oh well.
I just got the Smile Empty Soul cd and I must say it is very good, although I can sense much anger in the album. I see a lot of myself in those lyrics...sometimes it's kind of scary. I don't want to feel that way but sometimes you can't help who you are, although I'd rather not be that person.
Ah, to find a people that accept you for who you are and do not judge or make fun *cough* of who you are and what you do. That is a good feeling. To feel comfortable around certain people and not feel like you have to conform to their ways or feel you are an outsider because you are different is really a joy and relief. There are so few people like that.
I hope I don't grow up like my parents. And yet...I see myself turning into my dad. But how can I help that? I grew up for 19 years in his footsteps so it just became habit to do what he did. However I have noticed the things that were wrong in my household growing up lately in my life and I so desire to change that so I do not make my kids suffer as I did, physically and emotionally. I know, I know, some people are gonna tell me "hey you didn't have it as bad as I did!" Well, I am really sorry they did and I am glad I didn't grow up that way. But sometimes it is worse to grow up "middle-of-the-road" with people that have two totally different sides to them so you never know what to think, how to act, what way should I be living my life? I was so confused growing up.
I think this is enough rambling for now...