Jun 03, 2005 23:08
before i pack my things,
there's something i'd like to say;
i'm so happy for all the happiness people have shed upon my life.
and all the joy that friendship brings.
thanks for all the signs
that have pointed me in the right direction
thanks for all the sections
in the austin high band
and thanks for always holdng my hand.
so before i leave
i'd like to say
i love you all
and without you
i dont think i couldve had such a ball
and since i am without you
for such a short time
i'm going to try to smile on my own
and to walk myself
and since i have no one's hand to hold
i'll have to pitter patter
along the corridors of my dreams
not in hand in hand
but always know i'll think of you
and you'll be the everlasting imprint in my mind
and before i say good night i just want to say
thanks for all the smiles, the laughs, the pats, the comfort and especially for letting me depend upon you all.
i never really had friends before this year and if i did they were in a small group and i didnt feel right, so thanks for making me feel welcome in a strange pond in a new place in an uneasy space.
just thank you is all i'm trying to say.
i shouldve said all this earlier
but i couldnt find the words
and i know these arent even close to the right words
but they're the best i've got so please take them to heart
and dont tell me what you think. just tell me how you feel afterwards.
thankyou so much for the time, the effort and for the tears of joy, they mean more to me than life.
this goggle of words might mean nothing to you,
or it might mean alot.
it has no structure but
it has alot of thought and thats not all i have to say
so wait for more and let me explain when i get back
from my time in kerriville, things will make alot more sense then.
thanks for the time and sorry if you'd had your fill.
of the things i have to say and things i still have to say. but if you get tired of reading all this,
he break point was two minutes ago,
so you might as well finish and have a go.
at all the things i have to say cause if it doesnt all flow,
it might make me crazy, it might make me mad
or it might make me glow.
it just depends on the way you feel,
and the way you react when you see me again.
just punch me in the face or give me a big hug to let me know,
if it was a good or a bad read. so see you when i see you and
i hope all is well and that none of this made your head swell.
yeah.. it prolly doesnt make any sense cause i wrote it line by line according to how i felt at that exact time and lot of it doesnt rhyme or make sense together but its what i've got. sorry.
the point of this jumble of words is to see what i feel like line by line, second by second. it may not make sense but i think thats the point. so try it sometime, see how you feel. to let my thoughts go to let them escape and to let myself flow and free.
gracias senoritas y señors. it means alot that you didnt just scroll down this and ignore it. like alot of people do to my ideas and thoughts. but i take no offense to it, its alright. i'd do the same to someone like me.