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life is such a contradiction. i don't understand how i can be so happy with aaron, and yet, because absolutely everything else in my life sucks, i am terrified of our relationship...terrified that i love him a lot more than he loves me...terrified that i'm gonna mess this up...because everything else depresses me, and i'm comfortable telling him everything...he's my best friend (not close to my poodit) but he's my best friend now...i don't want to drive him away...i don't want anything to change..at all