do you ever get so tired your eyes get all cloudy?
so.. this has been the longest week in history.
my school stuff fell through.. i'd rather not go into detail on here buut i'm sure most of you have heard anyways already buut if you didn't i'll explain to you buut not on this. mm.. so needless to say i'm not going to southern vermont college, i was almost done getting stuff for my dorm, talked to my room mate-- who by the way was the coolest, and was excited to get away buut at the same time i got scared because it was so far away & i don't know anyone annnnnd i wasn't all that into going all together. so i guess its not all bad situation here. mm..so now i'm going to either bridgewater state :-/ with half of mhs or i'm gonna have to go to community college for 2 years and transfer into a state school for the last 2 which isn't thaaat bad but it does kinda blow annd i have to commute..sucks because my car is dying.. soo now i have to figure out what to do with that. so when you all are all going away to school.. i'll be stuck here in this boring town all by myself. i mean there are people i can hang out with that are going to school locally but it sucks because i have to wait on the whole college experience.
i dont know i have a lot to think about and i'm trying not to stress out over all of it buut there are times i don't deal so well. whatev.
today i went to the beach.. i look like a lobster temporarily. buut it's better than my normal pale face. this week will suck. i will be working every single day either on doubles, nigh shift or day shifts.. annnd if you can catch me on somedays i have days off.
but i swear i really am happy past all this..