Stunt Double.
My whole life I've tried my very hardest to make the right decisions and choices....
I feel though I may have let myself down...
Life is throwing curve balls at me, and I'm not dodging... They are hittin me right in the face.
I've been ignoring my own brother. I got upset with him, told him off, and then my phone rings the next day. It was him. I didn't answer. Now I feel like an ass hole... Although I still wont answer or call...
Found out today that the guy that I was kind of dating from work is transferring to another location because it is too hard for him to work with a girl he's inlove with that wont let herself like him.
Also, a guy, willing to give me the world... or... the keys to his car and his first three pay checks... I wont allow myself to get near. I have no logical explaination for this, I just have a problem with moving on I guess... Is it moving on, or trusting my heart in someone else's hands?
...So instead, I piss the world off with my ignorance...
I avoid coversation that might lead to confrontation although conversing over issues I hold in is probably what I need to do.
People ask, I deny. When really I know I need to speak up.
Who am I? And what the hell am I doing?
I feel like I'll never know.
So tonight, I come home from work, lay on the couch and watch Sex and the City for about 4 hours. This is my way of dealing with things, I guess.
This all was not me...I have a twin.
I feel though I may have let myself down...
Life is throwing curve balls at me, and I'm not dodging... They are hittin me right in the face.
I've been ignoring my own brother. I got upset with him, told him off, and then my phone rings the next day. It was him. I didn't answer. Now I feel like an ass hole... Although I still wont answer or call...
Found out today that the guy that I was kind of dating from work is transferring to another location because it is too hard for him to work with a girl he's inlove with that wont let herself like him.
Also, a guy, willing to give me the world... or... the keys to his car and his first three pay checks... I wont allow myself to get near. I have no logical explaination for this, I just have a problem with moving on I guess... Is it moving on, or trusting my heart in someone else's hands?
...So instead, I piss the world off with my ignorance...
I avoid coversation that might lead to confrontation although conversing over issues I hold in is probably what I need to do.
People ask, I deny. When really I know I need to speak up.
Who am I? And what the hell am I doing?
I feel like I'll never know.
So tonight, I come home from work, lay on the couch and watch Sex and the City for about 4 hours. This is my way of dealing with things, I guess.
This all was not me...I have a twin.