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[rsaviator]

you know I never would've told you to leave. even if I had known then what I know now. a preying mantis jumped on budah's leg today... the last time I saw one of those was when we were dating and u were in walt's basement working on music w walt... and I saw se7en of them... it was almost 1 year to the day that she had died... and I saw 7 of them. it was right around the time all of the clocks in your apartment were stopping with their hands on seven... or the digital ones were stopping at variations of 7 something. I may let go someday... but that won't mean I left. I frigging miss you. you had a way of making things make sense. miss you, old friend.
love,
kiddo

lexi wrote this from me to you... I didn't have post it on yer page.

I cant seem to fill, the well inside me
But Im drowing still
Where did I go wrong
Climb where I can see, a force outside me
Where I want to be

When Im free, the web across my eyes will clear
when Im free, they all will be there
when Im free, theres someone gonna take my place
when I come to you
when Im free

Where do I belong, why cant I feel you
I cant say whats wrong
Show me how to fight
Take me as I am
The way it ought to be
Catch me if you can

When Im free, the web across my eyes will clear
when Im free, they all will be there
when Im free, theres someone gonna take my place
when I come to you
when Im free