Why do I let this get to me

[rrrjak]

Mary not staying with me cause she wants to stay with a guy whose coming down.
She never makes time for me, right now only one person ever makes time to hang out with me.
It's way to complicated to get into, I'm just really upset right now. I haven't felt this bad in a long long time. I don't know why I let it get to me like this. I guess it's because I care about her so much....but who would really care about my feelings, I mean I'm not worth it. I'm not trying to gain any sympathy. It's just.......I have a feeling that if I lose weight maybe people will be nicer to me...I try not to think that everyone isn't that shallow, but you know as good as I that they are.

I'm not the type of guy either that would be happy with that. I'll probably find something else to complain about.

I'm going to go scream into my pillow now and maybe have a good cry.....well no cry is any good.

I really do <3 you guys, my friends
Rudy

P.S.(I know having a P.S. on the computer is a bit redundant)

*it came to my knowledge that I haven't told Carri that she's my best friend*.....well you are *thumbs up* good for you, lol