stuck
i fell like my life is very plain or boring is the word for it. I guess i really dont know how to explain it. everyone around me has someone or something and then theres me to the side watching. maybe thats my fault because im so fucking loud and people see that as a turn off. i dont know.
anyways so tuesday is my big day. im going to sign up for national guard. is that crazy or what. ive been thinkg about it a lot and just decided to stop thinking and do it. i want to do this but i think my mother is going to kill. shes pissed at me for duing this and she thinks im going to back out like my brother but im not. and i hate it when shes mad at me cause she can be such a bitch. but this is something im doing for myself.
well i know its been awhile so nice typing to you again.
o yea and i just played the most intensive rounds of BINGO. who knew that game could be fun.... i love old women ;)
-rachel out!