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he didn't call on sunday. he called on monday but never called back. acted like everything was alright. i know he is away and on vacation, but how long can i make excuses for him?
scared myself tonight with how desperate i was being.
HE didn't call me back last night or at all today. but yet he mysteriously doesn't know why our relationship is lacking and slipping out of our grasp. i wonder how he doesn't know? it takes two to be friends.
haven't heard from people that i thought mattered. this disappoints me. is that ok?
hung out with cool new people the other night. went midnight bowling. potential friends. why just potential though?
hanging out with mel again tonight and tomorrow. don't know what i would do without her.
still looking forward to my vacation in october. pretty excited about next week cause i am working a lot of hours which means more out of debt for jessica. october 1st is the deadline.
kinda sad about my family not supporting me in anything i do. "going to england is not a wise decision." "why don't you have money for books?"
i am not going to school this semester because my mom does not think i can stand on my own two feet. i am constantly trying to prove her wrong. i had to drop my classes after i already started homework and two quizzes. i simply asked to borrow money and i would pay her back in a couple of weeks when the money came in. it just so happens that all my bills are due at the end of the month. plus, she thinks it was retarded that i spent money on a passport. moving across the country by myself at 19 isn't good enough for her. so you know what, i am never asking her for another thing in my life. i am tired of depending on her at all. she's right, i am a grown up and i need to learn to stand on my own two feet.i am not done just depending on her, i am done asking anyone for help. i will do this thing called life on my own. if i can't afford something, i just won't do it. if i am not capable of something by myself, i won't do it.
i'm done ranting.
scared myself tonight with how desperate i was being.
HE didn't call me back last night or at all today. but yet he mysteriously doesn't know why our relationship is lacking and slipping out of our grasp. i wonder how he doesn't know? it takes two to be friends.
haven't heard from people that i thought mattered. this disappoints me. is that ok?
hung out with cool new people the other night. went midnight bowling. potential friends. why just potential though?
hanging out with mel again tonight and tomorrow. don't know what i would do without her.
still looking forward to my vacation in october. pretty excited about next week cause i am working a lot of hours which means more out of debt for jessica. october 1st is the deadline.
kinda sad about my family not supporting me in anything i do. "going to england is not a wise decision." "why don't you have money for books?"
i am not going to school this semester because my mom does not think i can stand on my own two feet. i am constantly trying to prove her wrong. i had to drop my classes after i already started homework and two quizzes. i simply asked to borrow money and i would pay her back in a couple of weeks when the money came in. it just so happens that all my bills are due at the end of the month. plus, she thinks it was retarded that i spent money on a passport. moving across the country by myself at 19 isn't good enough for her. so you know what, i am never asking her for another thing in my life. i am tired of depending on her at all. she's right, i am a grown up and i need to learn to stand on my own two feet.i am not done just depending on her, i am done asking anyone for help. i will do this thing called life on my own. if i can't afford something, i just won't do it. if i am not capable of something by myself, i won't do it.
i'm done ranting.