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[rroxygrl7]

it really hurts to know that they only want me to come over for one reason. i'm sure i have dated guys before that only were dating me because of the make out benefits, actually i can think of a couple of guys. but anyways, i thought justin and brandi were different. you make one mistake and then they think that it is ok with you and they can call

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[dizney1day]

"ryan was so right, there is no reason we have to force a relationship even if we do end up having a child."

????? Um....am I reading this wrong ?????

Anyways, I know exactly how you feel Jessica. I felt that way not to long ago about the little town I have grown to love so much. I hated Venice and wanted to run away from it. That was where I saw Orlando as an excape. Once I got here, I realized I was only running away from my problems and things were no better here. In fact, I was still dealing with the same problems. I know and understand why you want to run. Jessica, you cannot run forever. Life just doesn't work like that. You see the light at the end of the tunnel in PA, but really PA will not be good unless you solve everything here. I know it sounds strange but Orlando will always be with you and if you don't fix it, it WILL follow.

Relationships are a tie down. You are right about that. I do not agreee about school being a tie down. Jessica, to be able to do all those things you said you wanted to do, "the passion that i ache for is to be free, to be able to do whatever the world presents to me, to travel, to dream and make those dreams become reality" you need to go to school. Being free comes with responsibilities beleive it or not and without school you will never get to that place you want to be.

Your stressed and feel like Orlando is your problem, and it fact, it probably is. All you need is a fresh start. Get everything on track again. I hope PA will help you realize that so you can come back to Orlando with a fresh start. Don't give up on school cause once you quit, they say you never go back and you DO NOT want those non-college jobs the rest of your life.

Take your vacation, but come back.....trust me...your family and your friends are here.....

So if any of that made sense more power to me! If it didn't, just ignore all of it. I want to see you happy and I want to help. If you need anything you know where I am.

WE HAVE TO get together before you leave. You don't really want me to keep your jacket forever do you..lol?

Call me!

[rroxygrl7]

i love you! it made a lot of sense... and made me cry. i know you are right about everything you said, it is just hard to accept that. we will definitly have to get together before i leave! i need the next season of sex and the city!