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i don't know how or why, but he has managed to make me love him. i am unbearable without him. the thought of him ever leaving brings tears to my eyes. i am a firm believer that passion can grow between two people even if it's not there at first. i wonder if he ever suspected this? i certainly didn't. i was just curious and then somehow poof! i fell in love with him.
the fighting has nearly ceased. we are just happy and comfortable with each other. it will be a year in may, wow, officially my longest relationship. it's going to come so fast. i want to take a vacation to celebrate.
but maybe instead of vacation it will be moving day. we've discussed it and he thinks that by the time he gets a job at the end of may, we will be ready for the big step. it would be so perfect. i would not have to stay at my parents for longer than six months, i wouldn't have to live at the dorms at school, and best of all, i would get to wake up next to the person i am madly in love with every morning.
sometimes i don't think it could ever get boring between us. i will love him when we are old and watch our children grow old. these six days i have been off work have been the best because i have been able to spend time with him, actual time. not just an hour here and an hour there. when i go back to work tomorrow i think i will have withdrawls.
last night i did not feel good, really bad headache. so he came over and we ate some food, some headache curing sex, and fell asleep. he stayed until like 12:30 is what he said and then he slipped out. i had this disappointing feeling this morning when i woke up and realized i hadn't woken up when he left, but that feeling disappeared when he called me.
at this point, i can't tell you how happy it will make me the day he moves out of his parents, i don't care if it's with me or not. i just want one night. one night to spend completely with him sleeping by my side. hopefully it will come before move out day of this apartment.
the fighting has nearly ceased. we are just happy and comfortable with each other. it will be a year in may, wow, officially my longest relationship. it's going to come so fast. i want to take a vacation to celebrate.
but maybe instead of vacation it will be moving day. we've discussed it and he thinks that by the time he gets a job at the end of may, we will be ready for the big step. it would be so perfect. i would not have to stay at my parents for longer than six months, i wouldn't have to live at the dorms at school, and best of all, i would get to wake up next to the person i am madly in love with every morning.
sometimes i don't think it could ever get boring between us. i will love him when we are old and watch our children grow old. these six days i have been off work have been the best because i have been able to spend time with him, actual time. not just an hour here and an hour there. when i go back to work tomorrow i think i will have withdrawls.
last night i did not feel good, really bad headache. so he came over and we ate some food, some headache curing sex, and fell asleep. he stayed until like 12:30 is what he said and then he slipped out. i had this disappointing feeling this morning when i woke up and realized i hadn't woken up when he left, but that feeling disappeared when he called me.
at this point, i can't tell you how happy it will make me the day he moves out of his parents, i don't care if it's with me or not. i just want one night. one night to spend completely with him sleeping by my side. hopefully it will come before move out day of this apartment.