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I’ve pretty much hit melt-down mode. The past 7 hours have been me writing my Curriculum Vitae and looking at graduate schools, and feeling grossly unprepared. I’ve got no publications, very little research experience, I’ve gotten no grants, I have no real honors. Naïve me thought that graduate school was where you got all that stuff. I guess I was wrong.
I just hate uncertainty. Usually I have a goal for myself, I set out to do it, and then I get it done with no problem. Now, I don’t even know what I want. I know vaguely what I want to research, but I have no idea where to look or how to visit school, or who I need to talk to at the schools.
Of course, I bring up possibly just interning for a year to my family and they act like I’ve killed their first born daughter. So no pressure on me or anything.
I just hate uncertainty. Usually I have a goal for myself, I set out to do it, and then I get it done with no problem. Now, I don’t even know what I want. I know vaguely what I want to research, but I have no idea where to look or how to visit school, or who I need to talk to at the schools.
Of course, I bring up possibly just interning for a year to my family and they act like I’ve killed their first born daughter. So no pressure on me or anything.