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Today isn't the greatest of days, but it could be worse. I think I get a little mid-week depression where I just get stressed because of all the work I have to get done, all the practices I have to go to and everything else with dance and sorority that just catches up with me almost every Tuesday and Wednesday. I am hanging in there though. Today I made a plan for the next two weeks of everything I have to do before Thanksgiving. I am going to be a busy girl. Another thing stressing me out is that I am not doing well in my Anthro class. I know it is just a gen ed and I have not cared about it too much but I hate the feeling that I am not doing good in something. I got my last test score back today and it was a 76. I think that might be my worst score on a test since being a college! It really isnt that big of a deal because with that I have an 82 in the class, but still, it frustrates me because I know I could have done better. I also have two term papers that I have been trying to get done for the last week and they are hardly started. But, as I am writing all this I am just thinking "Rachel, calm down, you'll get it done and live through it" . Breathe in, breathe out, K I'm good.
Jenessa left for the night and it is so weird not to have her here. I swear we have been attached at the hip since we planned the Avril concert. I really dont think I have ever had a friend like her. I love hanging out together because we make whatever we do fun. I think we are really compatible because we have both have so much energy and we are really big dorks too. Lol. We hung out with Pat and Joe last night. I seriously love spending time with them. We told them we are going to be their faux girlfriends and come over to cook them dinner next week because they are such nice guys.
Tonight I have practice and I am kinda looking forward to it. It is a nice release from all my stress to go dance. Plus, the dance we are working on is badass and all angry so that makes it even better. I cant wait for basketball, but I am really self concious about getting up in our outfits. I know that I lost weight here and I dont look bad, but I am not satisfied yet with how I look. I am trying hard, but it is like every morning I wake up and say I am going to eat good, but it never lasts. grrrr. But either way, my dancing will be good and people that judge me based on anything that has to do with my stomach are not worth my time. Hopefully with all the working out I am doing it will start to show more soon and I will be more comfortable.
And last, but not least...Happy Birthday Matt!!! (I heart my brother <3)