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everything piles up.
my schedule consists of work, school, and whatever someone else's plans are.
i stopped trying to make myself happy
and now i'm not.
today i go to school, come home and to homework and go to sleep
i think part of why i'm not trying is because i don't know what will make me happy anymore
i'm so afraid of quitting rl that i can't do it.
even if it means having my weekend back
i'm so afraid of inconveniencing people that i don't care about my own well being anymore.
my schedule consists of work, school, and whatever someone else's plans are.
i stopped trying to make myself happy
and now i'm not.
today i go to school, come home and to homework and go to sleep
i think part of why i'm not trying is because i don't know what will make me happy anymore
i'm so afraid of quitting rl that i can't do it.
even if it means having my weekend back
i'm so afraid of inconveniencing people that i don't care about my own well being anymore.