Dec 08, 2004 18:20
Some questions that need to be answered...
Why do I have to feel pain when ever I say good bye?
Is it bad to give too much love to a person?
Is it wrong to think of only one person?
Am I being tested when ever anyone asks me "would you do her?", or is it just something guys like asking just for the fuck of it?
I ask all these questions because I have no answer for them, help me out, seriously...
There is no doubt that I love her very dearly, she means the world to me, but to what extent I don't know, I wish I knew. There has never been a doubt whether I'm happy or not, just knowing that I have a person like her with me, makes life a whole lot better. My friend asked me, "Do you really believe that it is true love you feel?". I said, I haven't lost any of the feelings I've felt, and the choice of me liking her or not isn't mine, I just follow my feelings. I have no control over it. I know why and I know how much... I wrote this a while ago, but it is still as effective in answering the question:
When ever I feel alone, I think of you, and I feel as though the whole world is beside me... When ever I need to be happy, I think of you, and my heart comes to life, and I feel whole... When ever I see you, when I see you smile, I feel as though I am home, and that's something I don't want to lose because you are worth more than the world to me...
I don't know why my love is being challenged, but that's a challenge I will dominate in, no matter what because it's very hard for me to give love, and when I can give it, I cherish the person who I love.
ALRIGHT!!! Serious moment is over... I hope...
I have the weirdest people in my log sheet in my subprofile... I should IM them, and be like WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?!?!?! It's a bad entrence, but effective =P
Cory have a good winter formal with Ashley. Rafa, and Kyle, we're going to have a little fun Friday.