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hey* wow! i just wanna fuckin die* i hate my life! im soo sick of goin through the crap im in. i feel i dont deserve anything. i dont get why i deserve chances with Brenden because i fucked up b4. i love this guy to death,but why me? isnt there someone out there that wont hurt him like i did b4? theres someone better out there for him, rather than me. why do i have the friends i do? i mean i fucked up there too. i lost a friendship with a guy, pretty mucy, because i wouldnt go out with him. i seem to fuck up everything. i dont deserve to live this life. why should i live a life where i am always depressed and just wanna die anyways? its not worth it! ( just like me ). i just dk. i seriously just wanna put a fuckin gun to my head and pull the trigger. or just slit my wrists and watch the blood run down my arm until im dead. or just put a knife to my chest, and sit there in misery until i die. then i would know what ive done to others...