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[badass_slayer]

As always I was about three shades of bored and lookin' for somethin' to keep me busy till I could get out a stake somethin'. Thats mostly what my days had come down to..boredom, patrollin', sleepin', followed by an excessive amount of more boredom. God man. I can remember the days when nothin' could keep in lock down like this. Of course it also

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[wannabe_slayer]

I was sitting in the office worrying about Leo, worrying about what he might be doing right now, why he wasn't here holding me. Cait was getting more and more distant, she didn't even trust me anymore. I couldn't deal with all of this. Then there was work, and now Faith.

"I like the quiet."

I said softly.

[badass_slayer]

Obviously, I thought to myself, but I wasn't goin' to say that out loud. The chick looked like she had enough on her mind, she sure as hell didn't need me givin' her any flack on top of it.

"Hey, yeah, I can dig that. I can bail if you want me to?"

I said as I raised my hands and made a gesture to leave. I paused long enough to wait and see if thats what she wanted. You never know which these chicks around here.

[wannabe_slayer]

"Please don't"

I whispered softly.

"Everyone keeps leaving, everyone keeps disappearing or finding things that make them not be here."

I was muttering to myself, but it didn't keep Faith from hearing it.

[badass_slayer]

"Dude, you seem like you need to do some serious venting."

I pulled a chair out of the corner, spun it around and sat down. I folded my arms over the back of the chair and rested my head on them.

"So tell me, whats eatin' ya?"

[wannabe_slayer]

"You mean aside from the man that I love avoiding me doing the whole blame himself because he messed up and got Julie arrested thing. Or maybe its the whole my sister hates me because she thinks I will leave like Leo, or it could be that my head feels like a two ton semi followed by a 30 car train hit me then back up to try again because they weren't thrilled with the first time."

I said a bit sarcastically then calmed down.

"Sorry, I..I am just sick of people and all their damn issues."

[badass_slayer]

"Easy there tiger. Your gonna rupture somethin'."

I actually felt bad for her, even though I would be one of the first to blame her man for gettin' Julie arrested too, but I wasn't gonna go there.

"Have you tried talkin' to either of them? I hear that usually works."

[wannabe_slayer]

"Would love to. Cait just yells at me and spends all her time with Lorne, and Leo doesn't answer my calls. I call and call and call and he won't answer."

I said softly at first and worked up to louder.

[badass_slayer]

"That blows. Maybe you can get Lorne to talk to her?"

I didn't know what else to tell her. Personally I thought they were both acting like children, takin' out their frustration and worries on Ang, but hey, not my place to say anythin'.

"As for Leo, what can I say...give it time?"

I half said half asked.

[wannabe_slayer]

"I hope that will help."

I said softly

"I just miss the way things used to be..before Robert died, and the demon and this"

[badass_slayer]

I missed the way things used to be too, but for entirely different reasons. People came and went from my life every day and I can't say in the long run it has effected me all to much. Nor have I really gave a rats ass but that was another story all together.

"Well, I can say this, I hope things get better for you...for everyone, because there is a serious lack of enthusiasm around here and I would kill for a really good case to come our way and jump start everyones engine."

After I had said it the thought occurred to me that maybe somethin' had come along and with all the mopin' I did in my room I had missed it.

"Somethin' hasn't come along, has it?"

[wannabe_slayer]

"Translation, did I have a bone crunching, skull spitting migrane of a vision?"

I asked softly as I looked up at her.

"No, I havent."

[badass_slayer]

"Well that bites."

I said and then caught myself.

"Not that I wanted you to have a bone crushin', mind splittin'...thing. I was just hopin' to get a little action around here."

I winked at her, "Not that kind of action either...but then again...."

Ok, I was gettin' way off track here. Focus Faith, this people friendly thing is new but you can do it.

"So what do you think your gonna do..about Cait I mean? You gonna ask Lorne to butt in?"

[wannabe_slayer]

"Who do you think she is spending all her time with?"

I said softly looking away.

"Sorry, don't mean to snap at you..I don't think I have slept or ate or done anything more than worry for the last month."

[badass_slayer]

"Naw, it's cool. I can take a few hits before I start to get testy."

My pathetic attempt at humor fell short. In fact it didn't even seem to phase her. Damn, I was so not the chick to be helpin' someone with their emotional baggage. But, since I had already stuck my foot in this one, I couldn't just leave her hangin' like this.

"Look, even I know this self inflicted punishment your layin' on yourself isn't healthy. You can't be there for Cait in this condition, and isn't that what she's trippin' over in the first place? I really think you need to see Lorne and get together with Cait and talk this out. I can go with if you want. I can dig doin' the whole moral support thing."

[wannabe_slayer]

"I am not inflicting..I have never had a real easy time sleeping, and when I finally got to where I could, where it felt right sleeping in Leo's arms, he left and I was alone again. I try to eat something and I just can't. Cait needs someone stable, she has that with Lorne right now."

I looked to her

"She will never have that with me, she could never depend on me. Maybe my parents were right, maybe I am useless and nothing but a whorish girl."

Ok why am I unloading on Faith? This isn't her fault.

[badass_slayer]

I raised an eyebrow at her. I didn't know this chick had so many hidden issues, and I was kinda wishin' I hadn't caught her in such a sharin' mood. There was no way anythin' comin' out of my mouth was goin' to help her in anyway. Hell, I couldn't even help myself half the time.

"Look, I didn't mean to come in here and open your wounds for you. To be honest, I'm not every good with this sort of thing. Have you talked to Giles? Now there's a dude who can help with anythin', or so I've heard."