nightful events......

[paige__matthews]

I was more than unsatisfied with the whole situation. After I hugged her she left the attic and I was alone to do some thinking. Which was of course bad in itself but what else could you do? I sat down staring at the spell I had started to write. I threw it to the ground before I could get tempted. If only there was one tiny thing I could do to

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[paige__matthews]

I watched as he pointed to his eye. I might sound stupid of me but I didn't even notice it before. I almost immediately started to feel bad for him. He seemed like a really nice guy and for him to call through all of this didn't seem right.

He had plenty of power, from the way he had described it he was very useful to his friends. I smiled as I crawled from the couch till I was infront of him. I lightly smiled as I continued to look at him.

"It's a power-"

I said very softly as I reach for his hand. I drug it down as I looked at his patch. It was just like every other patch in the world. I had so badly wanted to help Julie but I started to think I could atleast help someone else in need.

I took my hand off of his and I put my index finger on the string of the patch. I guided it up down for a moment. I wondered if this would be considered personal gain. It really wasn't for me but to help someone else with their gift. I rested my hand on the side of his face gently brushing it.

"I can help, I-I can heal your eye. That is if you want me too?"

The only problem I had to face was actually healing him. It was hard to heal my father but I think I could manage it. I knew the whole process and that love was the trigger, it suddenly didn't even seem that hard anymore.

[seerxander]

I pulled back from her. I had seen Willow use magicks for her own personal use in Sunnydale and it nearly destroyed her. I wasn't going to let this amazing woman go down the same path when I could live perfectly with one eye.

"Paige..it..I mean I can live fine with just one eye."

She gave me a look I smiled and placed my hand softly on her cheek.

"What I mean is, magicks for personal use nearly killed Willow, it was like a drug for her, a very very bad drug...I just don't want that for you...not when I am perfectly ok with my one eye."

I said softly. I mean yeah she doesn't know how it happened and I could sit back and say oh woe is me and beg for her to heal the eye that the mean evil preacher man took away or I can be happy he didn't take both and work with what I have. I mean there are people like Julie who are a lot worse off.

[paige__matthews]

I couldn't help but stare at him. It seemed odd that he was quick to panic on such an issue. I had also remember what Willow had been through but this wasn't the same. I pulled my hand up to his, I could see he was very worried for a moment.

"It's ok.."

I couldn't help but wonder what situations he's been through to make him so jumpy. Sure this could be considered personal gain if I was using magic, dark magic. This wasn't for me, I just wanted to help him.

"I'm half-whitlighter. It's what whitlighters do, we heal the innocent.."

I lightly rubbed my thumb accrossed the back of his hand. I wanted to reassure him that everything would be fine and this is something that won't make me an addict. Of course there was the million other spells Phoebe, Piper and I had cast at different times. We had also gone evil at different times too. This was something I could keep from him.

"There is nothing to worry about. I had to heal my real dad one time and I didn't go all evil after that. I know what I'm doing, trust me."

[seerxander]

she was so stubborn.

"Are you sure you are not related to Will? She is about as stubborn as you."

I sighed

"I won't stop you, but please know that you don't have to do this..I mean I can survive..one eye and all"

I smiled

"I mean yeah an evil preacher man took my eye with his thumb in an effort to seperate Buffy from all of us and make it easier for the first to stop us, but really...there is much worse out there than Caleb the evil preacher man"

Oh god Willow's yammering has worn off on me

[paige__matthews]

I lightly laughed as he joked about Willow and I. We did have some similarities but not much. I tried to keep up as smile as I held onto his hand. I knew he was worried and all I just didn't think it was a big deal.

"it will be ok, It's harm none do as ye will type sorta thing. Besides it's not personal gain if I'm not involved."

I pulled up his hand hoping that I could have his approval. Without that I wasn't about to just do it anyway.

I paid close attention to the story of his lost eye. It even made me feel a bit better about healing him. Even if an evil preacher man did this he was still evil. That made the green light for me, evil hurts innocent, I save innocent. It's the correct connection.

"Then that makes it more worth it. If something evil done this to you then it would be fine. Besides Leo heals us all the time with just minor cuts and scrapes."

It was true but that was more on the boys and Pipers side..still. I gave his hand a squeeze as I leaned closer to take a look. I hoped I hadn't completely freaked him out.

[seerxander]

"I just don't think I need the eye..I mean yeah I need the eye, but I can be just fine without it. I don't think that I am that bad off, if that makes sense."

I looked at her she really wanted to do this and it made me want it which made me feel horrible.

"Look, if this is something you feel you have to do, then I won't stop you. I just don't want this to keep you from helping someone else...Deal?"

[paige__matthews]

I tilted my head as he continued on about not healing his eye. I knew that he was worried about the 'harm none do what ye will' It's not like it gives an easy meaning. It's actually very open to anything really. I smiled as I place both of my hands near his eye.

"You got a deal.."

Now the whole process was a tricky one and the trigger was love. I had love I knew I did but thinking about something that I love was harder than it looks. I thought about Piper and Phoebe but it didn't help, then I thought about my parents.

"Hmm.."

I felt my hands more than I did before. I felt a certain warmth sensation. I felt the pain he had endured when this happened. The jagged finger coursing through his eyes and the blood dripping down. Mostly I felt the pain of it all, it hurt for a moment then settle down slowly. When the pretty lights faded it wall all done. I smiled before feeling a jerk in my stomach.

"there all better..."