Hit Bottom -- where the peace is supposed to be.
In my own silent world I have come to see that it is much better here. There is no pain and no hurt and no one bothers you when you have shut yourself off from emotions and life itself. I am officially at the bottom. I can't go any further down. Not sure that I can go up, but I can look forward to not hitting an even lower low
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"Julie, why did you come here?"
"Because its safe from him"
"He is gone sweetie. You never have to be afraid again"
"I know, but the one person I trusted left me. He left me to go back to his real life."
I about lost it right there. I hated that this was effecting her like this.
"Julie, he had to go. I don't think he should have left like this, but he had to go back."
I said sympathetically.
"But...
She began to protest I stopped her.
"Julie, you still have lots of people who love you. Your mom is out there worried"
She started to cry as I spoke to her.
"She isn't having panic attacks is she?"
I shake my head
"I'm sorry"
I smiled softly at her
"Julie, don't be sorry, just come back to us. We need you. You are very important to all of us and I know Chris is gone, but you have all of us and you can call me anytime. I will leave all my numbers just for you"
I spoke softly and she nodded. Then we were back to reality. I was shocked that it was so easy. Buffy was much more difficult. Julie is not out of the woods, but in time will be.
"Julie..."
I said softly she just began to weep I gathered her in my arms and just held her.
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