significance

[wannabe_slayer]

It was a mad house here and I didn't know what to do. Willow was with Illyria and Angel and Wes was talking to Piper, so where does that leave me. What am I now just the vision girl and slayer nothing more? I can't even find Leo. I decided that I just didn't care anymore. I needed to get Caitlen home anyway

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[wannabe_slayer]

the last half hour drags on I finally leave the office Shelby had come in to relieve me. I carry my roses that Leo left and walked back to the apartment.

I walk in the door and head to my kitchen pulling a vase out and placing the roses in water and then head to my room to change. I needed out of thses conservative clothes.

[itsmrwhitelight]

I have planned a rather special surpirse (or as special as one can be on such short notice. ) I have covered the bed in rose petals, and lit candles on every surface possible. I decided to stand in the middle of the room in one of my more stylish outfits, soemthign the guys from queer-eye would have picked out for me. A tight knit gray sweater, slacks matching belt and dress shoes. I smile warmly when she walks in the bedroom door.

"Hey there gorgeous."

[wannabe_slayer]

I look around in shock

"Leo...you can't...I mean this is nice, but this many candles...this can't be good"

worried about fire

[itsmrwhitelight]

I had been so excited but after she said that my smile faded ever so slightly.

"Yea, well i thought it would be extremely romantic." I mumbled.
"I can blow some out." I said a little louder. I start walking towards one of the small tables be-decked in candles and blow out a few.

[wannabe_slayer]

I rush over to him and stop him.

"I'm sorry..."

I say and I kiss his cheek

"It was romantic and I ruined it...forgive me?"

[itsmrwhitelight]

I grabbed her and envloped her in a deep embrace.

"of course."

I kiss her softly and then pull back and look into her eyes.

"Do you believe in me yet?"

[wannabe_slayer]

I looked at him. I wanted to believe him so much it hurt, but I couldn't. I had been screwed around with too many times and he is too good to be true.

"I want to"

[itsmrwhitelight]

I was a bit hurt by her comment of "I want to" and not "I do" But I understood, she was in alot of pain and she had rushed into this realtionship with me, but as I look back on our time together (so far) and I don't think there could have been anyother way. Now how do I prove my extreme sorrow for hurting her and undying love?

"You can...I know it's hard for you to but I can wait for you to believe in me. I'm willing to take all the time in the world to help you see that I love and adore you, and that I will always be here for you. And have I mentioned that I am truly sorry?"

I wasn't sure what else I could say at this point and I'm not sure she really wanted me to make love to her, seeing that she is rather scared and upset with me...I guess I'll just folow her lead.

[wannabe_slayer]

I took his hands in mine and took a deep breath. I needed to contemplate the right words to say. I decided to tell him what was on my heart. I didn't know how this would go, but I had to be honest.

I led him to the bed and sat down next to him. Taking my hand I gently place it on his cheek and lean in and kiss him. I held the kiss for only a moment.

"Leo, I love you so much it hurts. I am terrified of two things. One that I will fall in love with you and you will be killed in some way because of me, or two I will fall in love with you and you will leave me for greener pastures. Leo I have been used and abused my whole life which is why my mom and dad thought I was a hooker. I have loved only two people and I am not ready for the second one to tear my heart into pieces. So please understand you might have to work harder to win me over"

I told him how I truly felt I hope he understands.

[itsmrwhitelight]

Well she said she loved me...It gives me hope.

"I can understand that. And I'm sorry your life has been so hard and so painful. But I want you to know I'm not very easy to get rid of, and I don't give up because things look a bit difficult. I don't care how hard I have to work to make you sure of me, becasue I love you and I want to make this work. I have faith that one day you will trust me. Until then I'll be here."

I lean in and give her a soft kiss.

[wannabe_slayer]

I was melting to him. I carefully wrapped my arms around him kissing him deeply. He had this way about him that with one kiss all that was bad melted away.

"I do love you"

[itsmrwhitelight]

My heart warmed because this time when she said she loved me she siad it in earnst and with a relaxed tone.

As she melted into my kiss and curled up in my arms I felt safe, and happy, and the only reason was Angelina, there loving me and not fighting it. I realized that her love is the the only thing that really matters.

I gather her in my arms in such a way that when I lean back she comes with me, so witht hat I lay her down on the bed. I stay at her side caressing the side of her face and leaning over once or twice to plant a quick kiss on her lips.

[wannabe_slayer]

I look at him. I cant handle not having him touching me. I need him inside me.

"Leo...show me"

I said softly

[itsmrwhitelight]

I grin widely, I can't help it, I don't have to. Grinning is a good thing.

"I can show you how much I love you. Is that what you want baby?"

She nods, a look of hunger fills her eyes. I look down at her clothes as if my signal that I'm going to undress her. I realize she still in her work clothes, which are so misplaced on her.

"Let's get those drab work clothes off." My grin seems to widen as I plant kisses on her neck and begin to unbutton her dress shirt.

[wannabe_slayer]

I asked him to show me how much he loved me. I could see relief in his eyes, like he had a renewed hope it was so adorable.

He walked over to me and began to take the modest work clothes off of me. He managed to get my top off noticing I didn't have a bra on he grinned.

he then guided me to standing and removed my skirt and slip to reveal only a thong. The only non modest thing I had on.

"Leo..."

I said motioning to the door that I just noticed was cracked open. I didn't fancy my 12 yr old sister walking in on us. Not that I think she would I just want to be safe.

[itsmrwhitelight]

"Right"
I ran full speed to the door which I kind of slammed in my haste. I locked it and ran back to Angelina.

"No where was I ?"