A long day and a short day
It was a long day and a short day. I think today for the most part was a little unproductive but more or less a weird day. I could talk about what's been bothering me and why I've been feeling a little bit sad for most of the day. Here I go. My mom and a few other friends have been feeling really down lately. It's been breaking me down but I know I need to stay strong and happy because I don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to remain as positive as possible so I can be there for her as well as my friends. Things are going to change really soon.
I talked with my mom and she was in tears. She couldn't even talk to my stepdad because he would yell at her when she would ask why he's been acting odd lately. She basically told me that their will probably be a divorce and I was thinking it'll be tough from here on out. Cold. Sadness. Loneliness. Black. Hurt. Pain. This is all I can hear and feel. I'm pushing it away because this is not going to do anything for me. I want to talk to him myself but I am intimidated and quite afraid. I'm not even sure where to start or what to do. I feel all this confusion. I think I'll go out and visit a friend to take my mind off things.
I did get a call from someone that made me smile...the only smile I pretty much made the whole day. Sometimes it's those small things that really make your day. Despite all the bad things that seem to be flowing around me, I'm not gonna let it bring me down. This is the one time I need to stay up.
Adieu for now.
I talked with my mom and she was in tears. She couldn't even talk to my stepdad because he would yell at her when she would ask why he's been acting odd lately. She basically told me that their will probably be a divorce and I was thinking it'll be tough from here on out. Cold. Sadness. Loneliness. Black. Hurt. Pain. This is all I can hear and feel. I'm pushing it away because this is not going to do anything for me. I want to talk to him myself but I am intimidated and quite afraid. I'm not even sure where to start or what to do. I feel all this confusion. I think I'll go out and visit a friend to take my mind off things.
I did get a call from someone that made me smile...the only smile I pretty much made the whole day. Sometimes it's those small things that really make your day. Despite all the bad things that seem to be flowing around me, I'm not gonna let it bring me down. This is the one time I need to stay up.
Adieu for now.