Long December
And it's one more day up in Rob's cabin...
Not just the change in weather to consider, but I can feel that it is going to be a long month. By this time last year, I was in a dire state of mind and physically exhausted. Now, it is another year and I feel a similar uncertainty about the short-term future. In the long-term, things are looking good. I am always good. Can't break Rob; Can't break what is already broken. ;)
My empire may appear a desolate place, weathered and torn. That is just the fringe. Most of you know this fact. Not unlike Link, one must uncover the stairway in the graveyard to find their way to me. My heart still beats strong as every, willful to ensure that the universe does its job right. It needs me to observe and it needs me only to nudge from time to time. The rest is already in motion. I do not make most of the ripples, I just make them bigger and send them on their way. *waves and grins*
Some think that I would be recessing within myself these days. Not so. Though I may appear self-absorbed, that is only because I now have a more defined sense of self-worth and appreciation. Anyone that has known me for several years, knows that I lacked that sort of development. I never used to like myself, just my fiction.
The only thing that I did wrong, as far as I can tell, was to not let myself be free.
Anyhow, did I mention yet how much I dislike the X-mas music that is being played at work now? It is going to be just like last year, listening to shit that I could care much less about. You know the rant.
"Yeah, thanks John and Yoko. I'll get right on that..."
I got yelled at two years ago when I brought in a mix that contains x-mas themed titles from names such as Leonard Cohen, Blink 182, and Ben Folds. They did not like the tunes because they were not happy enough. I like to represent all moods here. I brought my hythloth to the table and was shunned. You still at my goddamn cookies, though. Where is the consistency?
Not just the change in weather to consider, but I can feel that it is going to be a long month. By this time last year, I was in a dire state of mind and physically exhausted. Now, it is another year and I feel a similar uncertainty about the short-term future. In the long-term, things are looking good. I am always good. Can't break Rob; Can't break what is already broken. ;)
My empire may appear a desolate place, weathered and torn. That is just the fringe. Most of you know this fact. Not unlike Link, one must uncover the stairway in the graveyard to find their way to me. My heart still beats strong as every, willful to ensure that the universe does its job right. It needs me to observe and it needs me only to nudge from time to time. The rest is already in motion. I do not make most of the ripples, I just make them bigger and send them on their way. *waves and grins*
Some think that I would be recessing within myself these days. Not so. Though I may appear self-absorbed, that is only because I now have a more defined sense of self-worth and appreciation. Anyone that has known me for several years, knows that I lacked that sort of development. I never used to like myself, just my fiction.
The only thing that I did wrong, as far as I can tell, was to not let myself be free.
Anyhow, did I mention yet how much I dislike the X-mas music that is being played at work now? It is going to be just like last year, listening to shit that I could care much less about. You know the rant.
"Yeah, thanks John and Yoko. I'll get right on that..."
I got yelled at two years ago when I brought in a mix that contains x-mas themed titles from names such as Leonard Cohen, Blink 182, and Ben Folds. They did not like the tunes because they were not happy enough. I like to represent all moods here. I brought my hythloth to the table and was shunned. You still at my goddamn cookies, though. Where is the consistency?