Cruel Twists of Fate
Just thought I ought to explain why I'm a crying, mopey bitch these days...
As some people have heard, I'm having horse problems this fall. It started with a club feet diagnosis two months ago, and has taken a nasty turn.
for two months, I have vry carefully pampered my horse while he went through a series of corrective shoeings. He was diagnosed as a bilateral club foot, meaning both front feet are "clubbed". They are only stage one, so the prognosis was good, if a bit costly. It's been frustrating, but everyone was getting along tolerably well.
This past friday, I took my horse (RP) back for more shoes and a lameness exam. His feet have been doing wonderfully and the vet was astonished by how much they've improved in just 8 weeks. In the exam, we found that he has a torn ligament in his right hind leg. The vet informed me horses don't come back well from this, and while he might be able to ride on the flat, he will probably never jump again.
This is a huge devastating blow. RP loves to jump. I bought him and have kept him for eight years because we love to jump together. I feel like I have lost my best friend, partner... I don't even know how to describe it. Eventers bond very closely with their long-term mounts and have to learn to trust each other in a way no other horse sport requires. It feels like I've lost a part of myself. RP is my baby and the first horse I've ever owned.
I have absolutely no roleplay mojo left. I cried all the way home from the vet's and have cried everyday at the barn while caring for RP. He is completely stallbound for the next 4 weeks to see if he will heal at all. He's miserable and it kills me to see him like this and know we'll never ride cross-country together again. At the same time, I'm beginning to look for another horse and feeling guilty for even looking.
So if I'm missing or quiet alot now, that's why. I don't really expect anyone to read all of this or care, I just felt like saying it anyway.
As some people have heard, I'm having horse problems this fall. It started with a club feet diagnosis two months ago, and has taken a nasty turn.
for two months, I have vry carefully pampered my horse while he went through a series of corrective shoeings. He was diagnosed as a bilateral club foot, meaning both front feet are "clubbed". They are only stage one, so the prognosis was good, if a bit costly. It's been frustrating, but everyone was getting along tolerably well.
This past friday, I took my horse (RP) back for more shoes and a lameness exam. His feet have been doing wonderfully and the vet was astonished by how much they've improved in just 8 weeks. In the exam, we found that he has a torn ligament in his right hind leg. The vet informed me horses don't come back well from this, and while he might be able to ride on the flat, he will probably never jump again.
This is a huge devastating blow. RP loves to jump. I bought him and have kept him for eight years because we love to jump together. I feel like I have lost my best friend, partner... I don't even know how to describe it. Eventers bond very closely with their long-term mounts and have to learn to trust each other in a way no other horse sport requires. It feels like I've lost a part of myself. RP is my baby and the first horse I've ever owned.
I have absolutely no roleplay mojo left. I cried all the way home from the vet's and have cried everyday at the barn while caring for RP. He is completely stallbound for the next 4 weeks to see if he will heal at all. He's miserable and it kills me to see him like this and know we'll never ride cross-country together again. At the same time, I'm beginning to look for another horse and feeling guilty for even looking.
So if I'm missing or quiet alot now, that's why. I don't really expect anyone to read all of this or care, I just felt like saying it anyway.