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I think for pregnant women the temperature may be 80 but it feels 90. From all that blood and extra stuff
in there.
Went grocery shopping, panted like a dog, so hot. Brought in cold stuff, left rest in car.
Talked to my brother, whose reply to Mom getting married is 'finally' apparently he forgot all the abuse
heaped upon him. He also said 'it's not my life, none of my business' -- somehow he has become someone
I despise. I couldn't even talk to him on the phone very long, he is such a user, no morals and cares only
for himself. Ofcourse he hasn't been here for me during the pregnancy. But if he needs anything I'm sure he'll
call, though he knows he cannot have any more money till he pays us back the last 100.00 he owes us. Perhaps he and his gf are a perfect pair, liars both of them. Way overweight, eating McDonalds and smoking. I had a big part in raising him, though genetics I'm sure took over at some point.
Took a sleeping pill last night, still loagy this afternoon. Dreamt of hanging out with Madonna, asking her questions, me wearing WHITE?!?! shoes and a bad dress. Getting into a fight with deranged cousin, stealing back kitten that was mine and zooming away on a little go cart. Always have to go down curvy treed roads to leave her house. In reality the road leading out is paved.
The baby moved rhythmically this morning as I was waking up.
Tomorrow Miles friend is coming over, it will be a long day for me, plus hypnobirthing in the evening. Miles will be over at his house Thursday so I can do a whole lot of nothing. Cleaning person coming over Wednesday at 3:00, not sure what to do, maybe movies?
Pillows on this chair have helped tremendously, seeing the chiropractor for the first time on Thursday at 11:00 and massage in the evening. Busy.
I prefer to not be busy, to let these last days before becoming a Mom again pass as quietly as possible.
in there.
Went grocery shopping, panted like a dog, so hot. Brought in cold stuff, left rest in car.
Talked to my brother, whose reply to Mom getting married is 'finally' apparently he forgot all the abuse
heaped upon him. He also said 'it's not my life, none of my business' -- somehow he has become someone
I despise. I couldn't even talk to him on the phone very long, he is such a user, no morals and cares only
for himself. Ofcourse he hasn't been here for me during the pregnancy. But if he needs anything I'm sure he'll
call, though he knows he cannot have any more money till he pays us back the last 100.00 he owes us. Perhaps he and his gf are a perfect pair, liars both of them. Way overweight, eating McDonalds and smoking. I had a big part in raising him, though genetics I'm sure took over at some point.
Took a sleeping pill last night, still loagy this afternoon. Dreamt of hanging out with Madonna, asking her questions, me wearing WHITE?!?! shoes and a bad dress. Getting into a fight with deranged cousin, stealing back kitten that was mine and zooming away on a little go cart. Always have to go down curvy treed roads to leave her house. In reality the road leading out is paved.
The baby moved rhythmically this morning as I was waking up.
Tomorrow Miles friend is coming over, it will be a long day for me, plus hypnobirthing in the evening. Miles will be over at his house Thursday so I can do a whole lot of nothing. Cleaning person coming over Wednesday at 3:00, not sure what to do, maybe movies?
Pillows on this chair have helped tremendously, seeing the chiropractor for the first time on Thursday at 11:00 and massage in the evening. Busy.
I prefer to not be busy, to let these last days before becoming a Mom again pass as quietly as possible.