slowly crawling up the red walls
I have been stuck in this flat for 3 days now and I starting to creep up these red walls.. not because of boredom.. i just want to get out!!
Although I havent touched a smoke in over awhile... mainly cos i cant go out and buy some.. plus i dont really want to get an infection with the sitches.. although im sure smoking wont do anything to my stiches.. but still, i'd rather lie to myself.
whats really annoyed me is that i gained 10kg somehow... im now 95kg!!!! thats way over what i want to be!! So hoping with all this yogurt, porriage and pumpkin soup.. i might be able to lose a kg or two.
i dunno.. im in a 'meh' mood.. might be the drugs im on. Although i was crying all day yesterday. It was the pain and i dont know what the other reason is.
I hate the smell of the sitches, yes thats right i can smell them. It reminds me of the ear operations i had.
The Aunt wants to go Christmas shopping. and seriously, i couldnt give a fuck for Christmas... i hate christmas every since my mum died. none of our family wants to get together. so either i have a lame christmas either at home with just dad or a lamer christmas at Grandma jean's.. who doesnt have a working oven.
i really, really dont care anymore.
i really couldnt give a shit about my family atm.... its a phase.. i'll get over it
Although I havent touched a smoke in over awhile... mainly cos i cant go out and buy some.. plus i dont really want to get an infection with the sitches.. although im sure smoking wont do anything to my stiches.. but still, i'd rather lie to myself.
whats really annoyed me is that i gained 10kg somehow... im now 95kg!!!! thats way over what i want to be!! So hoping with all this yogurt, porriage and pumpkin soup.. i might be able to lose a kg or two.
i dunno.. im in a 'meh' mood.. might be the drugs im on. Although i was crying all day yesterday. It was the pain and i dont know what the other reason is.
I hate the smell of the sitches, yes thats right i can smell them. It reminds me of the ear operations i had.
The Aunt wants to go Christmas shopping. and seriously, i couldnt give a fuck for Christmas... i hate christmas every since my mum died. none of our family wants to get together. so either i have a lame christmas either at home with just dad or a lamer christmas at Grandma jean's.. who doesnt have a working oven.
i really, really dont care anymore.
i really couldnt give a shit about my family atm.... its a phase.. i'll get over it