why do you still like him even when he doesnt like you back?
okay i am pretty much gonna bitch and complain and vent so if u dont wanna hear about it....dont read the following..
so it is my fault that josh and i broke up
maybe if i wouldnt have complained about the lack of time he spent with me or how much time he had to spend at home or practicing or stuff like that
maybe if i was nicer to him
maybe if i wasnt so selfish
or maybe if i was just better we would still be together and i wouldnt be heartbroken and sad all the time....
i miss him and i didnt realize how much i loved him until friday night
and i do still love him
today natalie asked me why i still like him even though we are broken up
i told her that i didnt like him
i said that i was in love with him and that is different
people have been telling me that i can do way better
honestly, i dont think that i can
we will see
i dont know if i want to though
i just want josh back
but no matter what i say, he just says "sorry, i dont think so"
maybe it is for the best....i dont know
HALLOWEEN
so i had to go home and do fruit sale stuff and like only 40 people sold fruit so we arent gonna make that much money
so sarah and melissa came over at about 5:30
missy and i got ready
then carlbob and stacy came over
their friend scott
rob, jessy, steph, steve, and natalie came too
sarah was the last one to get ready
then we went to trusses house and took pics
it started raining
i broke my pimp cane
then we went to 7/11
then sarah steph steve and i sat and watched tv
they left at 9:30
i went upstairs and cleaned some and talked to people online
then i took off all my makeup and went to bed
*i missed becky last night but i am sure that she had fun with collin!!! ;)
today is dress rehearsal for the concert
then tomorrow is the concert
thursday is band for 2 hours
friday i dont know what i am doing, we will see
so it is my fault that josh and i broke up
maybe if i wouldnt have complained about the lack of time he spent with me or how much time he had to spend at home or practicing or stuff like that
maybe if i was nicer to him
maybe if i wasnt so selfish
or maybe if i was just better we would still be together and i wouldnt be heartbroken and sad all the time....
i miss him and i didnt realize how much i loved him until friday night
and i do still love him
today natalie asked me why i still like him even though we are broken up
i told her that i didnt like him
i said that i was in love with him and that is different
people have been telling me that i can do way better
honestly, i dont think that i can
we will see
i dont know if i want to though
i just want josh back
but no matter what i say, he just says "sorry, i dont think so"
maybe it is for the best....i dont know
HALLOWEEN
so i had to go home and do fruit sale stuff and like only 40 people sold fruit so we arent gonna make that much money
so sarah and melissa came over at about 5:30
missy and i got ready
then carlbob and stacy came over
their friend scott
rob, jessy, steph, steve, and natalie came too
sarah was the last one to get ready
then we went to trusses house and took pics
it started raining
i broke my pimp cane
then we went to 7/11
then sarah steph steve and i sat and watched tv
they left at 9:30
i went upstairs and cleaned some and talked to people online
then i took off all my makeup and went to bed
*i missed becky last night but i am sure that she had fun with collin!!! ;)
today is dress rehearsal for the concert
then tomorrow is the concert
thursday is band for 2 hours
friday i dont know what i am doing, we will see