Hospitals
I just spent another few days in the hospital, I was throwing up a few days like I have been (like this is a normal occurrence for me these days) Usually it passes after a couple of days but this time my husband actually offered to take me to the hospital if I felt like I needed to. So Thursday early morning we went to the ER. This was my first time going to a hospital in our new state of Texas. Let me just say the hospitals in VA are much better and newer. It still took me over 12 hours to get an actual room but I was seen by several doctors and told I would be admitted within the first few hours of being there. Of course I have tests run and numerous IVs given of fluids and nausea medicine...I end up getting an edoscopy and told I have a bladder infection and chronic kidney disease as well as severe esophagitous and gastroparesis. I am turning 40 this year and this is life now. Just another health issue added to the already growing list. I can't even cry about it. It's like I feel as if I am not allowed to cry. I don't even get time to really process my feelings about anything. I just go and go. I am back in the hospital after just being in one 2 weeks ago. This is draining. Not to mention, I also have that feeling of dread whenever I think about going back to work. I just don't want to deal with any of the people that work there or shop there anymore. I have officially stopped looking forward to going there. I really need a new job and one that actually gives me full-time hours.