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[royalguardgirl]

suicidal thoughs running throug my head
i wounder if i would just be better off dead.
you say dont worry
it will soon be fine
but dont tell me sorry
just to say it
becasue its not ok
and im sick of there shit
you make me want to quit
and give up my life.
but becasue of one true friend
 that i will never forget.
through one more season i will survive
(hopefully)
becasue with out you i would be gone.
and there would be no more me.
for anyone.
if i cant like myself how could anyone else like me?
im not confident, and i have really low selfesteem.
deal with it becasue i cant get rid of it.
i cant see myself has thinner than i was.
to me, i look in the merrior and see the world.
one big world.

so fuck you
you are ruening my life
and becasue of  you, i dotn want to live