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i dunno.
things are kind of shitty right now. things are slowly going southward for me. I cannot seem to keep concentration on whats actually important and where my life should be going. Being a nice guy isn't enough anymore. Being funny, and a person who people can be really good friends with just doesnt seem like enough. i'm just depressed. but not in a bad way. get me?
people are having silent grudges with me for no reason. and people i once looked at as really good friends are now turning there backs. why cant people just hang out and have fun anymore. why do drugs an alcohol need to be involved. i miss the days about 2 months ago when me and my usual group of friends would be up till 5 on the weekends watching movies and having a laugh. now all the sudden its like, oh no gotta be fucked up. i hate it.
Laura's friends de and rowland came up this past weekend, and rowland slapped stephanie cuz she told him to, and it pissed me off that he did it. and then laura got pissed cuz she said i was creating drama. now she wont talk to me. caleb and amanda dont talk to us anymore. the hall director is doing everything in his power to try and kick me out cuz he has a grudege with me. were did things go wrong. when did my life turn from this awesome path to the road of most resistance. its unbearable. i want out of this city, i wanna be back at home, with my real friends, not just people who don;t know me and automattically make assumptions as to who i am. i wanna work at arby;s and have a good time doing it. i want to be able to see my family and not have to fend for my self as much. i want my old life back.
college had corrupted and ruined me. i am the disconnected youth everyone fears of being. i am that person i vowed to never be.
smile, god hates you.
things are kind of shitty right now. things are slowly going southward for me. I cannot seem to keep concentration on whats actually important and where my life should be going. Being a nice guy isn't enough anymore. Being funny, and a person who people can be really good friends with just doesnt seem like enough. i'm just depressed. but not in a bad way. get me?
people are having silent grudges with me for no reason. and people i once looked at as really good friends are now turning there backs. why cant people just hang out and have fun anymore. why do drugs an alcohol need to be involved. i miss the days about 2 months ago when me and my usual group of friends would be up till 5 on the weekends watching movies and having a laugh. now all the sudden its like, oh no gotta be fucked up. i hate it.
Laura's friends de and rowland came up this past weekend, and rowland slapped stephanie cuz she told him to, and it pissed me off that he did it. and then laura got pissed cuz she said i was creating drama. now she wont talk to me. caleb and amanda dont talk to us anymore. the hall director is doing everything in his power to try and kick me out cuz he has a grudege with me. were did things go wrong. when did my life turn from this awesome path to the road of most resistance. its unbearable. i want out of this city, i wanna be back at home, with my real friends, not just people who don;t know me and automattically make assumptions as to who i am. i wanna work at arby;s and have a good time doing it. i want to be able to see my family and not have to fend for my self as much. i want my old life back.
college had corrupted and ruined me. i am the disconnected youth everyone fears of being. i am that person i vowed to never be.
smile, god hates you.