UGH
i have not been having a good time lately. i've been so depressed and it sucks. i dunno what i'm gonna do. my grades are falling and everything i've worked for is just going away. i have so much shit going on in my life that i don't know what to do. i have a lot of responsibility at governor's school, i have an english class that my teacher is determined to make impossible, i'm trying my hardest in cross country, i'm trying to have a good relationship with my boyfriend who is carless right now and supplying josh with drugs. LIFE SUCKS, I HATE IT. life feels like it did back when it did with all that shit in my life a couple years ago. i have very few people to help me right now. zeb tries but he's always working or hanging out with his friends doing all that shit. anna is too caught up in her own life to care. i never get to talk to lindsay cause she's always with brent so i don't get to see her. i can't confide in my parents cause if i tell my mom something the whole family knows within 24 hours. all my so called friends at gap think they're too bad ass and that they're cool cause they "do drugs." i can actually talk to elizabeth now. she seems to be more understanding now. i guess cause she has a lot of stuff to deal with too so she can sympathize with me. i dunno about anna. she's just always complained about everything that now it just gets on my nerves. i'm gonna take a bunch of sleeping pills and sleep til lunchtime tomorrow even though i took like a four hour nap earlier when i got home from my race. i'm depressed. later.. minx