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well, life has
been good. it sounds really horrible, but since i broke up with zeb my
life has been so much more fun and carefree. this morning my mom even
commented on it. we were talking about how i was happier without zeb
and i do more stuff with friends. she was like "well, i really wasn't
going to say this but now that we're talking about it, since you and
zeb broke up, you've been more open to everything and you seem to be
friends with more people." which is so true. when i was with zeb all i
thought about was "oh no, i need to see zeb a couple hours or he'll get
really upset" or "no, i don't want to go out with them because i don't
want zeb to get any wrong ideas." i was just so tied down. but now i'm
free (sounds corny, but i don't give a damn). alright, i do feel a
little bad, yet not, about how all this happened. i didn't think i
would ever cheat on zeb and i told myself i wasn't going to be like all
the other girls in his life.... but now i understand why those other
girls did what they did. it sounds horrible, but being with him drove
me to cheat on him. i really don't know how that works, but somehow it
does. and i'll sound like a total bitch for saying this but i think the
best thing that has happened to me in a long time is cheating. being
"with" bryan has been so much fun. he can make me laugh all the time.
and he's never serious. well, that's not what i meant. he's serious,
but he can be humorous at the same time. it's weird, but he has a way
of doing that. i dunno.. anyways, back to life. today me and anna went
to the district forensics meet at wilson. i really wanted to go cause
i'd never been to one and i've always wanted to go so i figured what
the hell. so i talked to nick in advanced comp and got the details.
then i was sitting there like "shit. bryan does forensics. he's going
to think i'm going just to stalk him and be around him... not
good." so i got anna to go and we decided we were there "cause we
wanted to see nick." well, it worked. who cares if we didn't even go
watch nick? lol. we would have, but we didn't know where he was. but i
had a lot of fun. i got to be around bryan a lot, and he didn't even
seem disturbed that i showed up. so that was all good. he and i had a
good time haha. i feel like such a hooch, but i really didn't do
anything bad. it was fun. oh yeah, lindsay, if you're reading this: we
went to the girls locker room and on the board it had something about
someone being hot... well now it also says he loves the cock. so just
to let you know about that lol it was bryan. but keep it on the DL!
haha i dunno what i'm doing. tomorrow i think i'm going to meet anna
elizabeth and bryan in town for a couple hours and hang out. it should
be fun. and i should probably go to bed now so i'm not cranky at 2pm
when i wake up tomorrow:). so, i shall leave this oh so interesting
story about my life...
later,
minx
later,
minx