RIP Heath Ledger
i don't know why i'm taking this so strangely. i'm not depressed or devastated, but i also still don't quite believe it. when krissi told me. i asked her to repeat herself at least 3 times. i broke the news to so many people, and i've been reading all the information and what not, but i can't shake this feeling that some huge chunk of me is gone and i don't know why. it's an actor for christ's sake! a fucking actor. yes, he was a really good one, but there are a lot of those in this world, and really they don't matter all that much. the only personal connection i ever had with Heath Ledger was that time last year he started dancing with ria and valerie and i at the echo, and it was so much fun and from the few words we exchanged with him he seemed like a really decent guy, but it's not like we ever hung out or anything. so why am i taking this so hard?
i guess i'm still more shocked than anything. shocked at the fact that he kept a serious drug addiction under raps for so long, and all anyone could say was that he dressed like a hobo. why is it that we can sit and force Lindsay Lohan and Amy Winehouse into rehab, but Heath Ledger is fine because he's still doing good work? do we really, really still live in a time when young, talented people die of drug overdoses? i thought that ended with the eighties. but i guess history really is cyclical, and how many more people are gonna have to die before we start trying a little harder to find something in life that's better than addiction? because that's really what it gets down to: it's not so much that "drugs are bad" cos we know drugs are bad, we just don't give a shit cos we've yet to find anything better to fill that void.
anyway, i'm deeply saddened by Heath Ledger's passing, so much so that i'm more than a little embarrassed by it. i've leaned on the superficial things, like "i guess there won't be a Joker spinoff of The Dark Knight!" or "he's gonna get that Oscar for sure next time!" or "fuuuuck that new Gilliam movie was looking really good, too!" but in all honesty i'm troubled by something i still can't put my finger on, in all this. when people were giving him shit for his Oscar nod, i defended him without even having seen the film. why? no idea. could have been a dozen reasons, but i can't think of them now. for some reason, i had so much respect for Heath Ledger and it was something i never did understand.
i'm still pinching myself, hoping this will all have been a dream.
EDIT: Defamer pointed out how chilling the Dark Knight trailer is now. maybe this is a large part of why this information is so hard to process: the last we'll see of Heath Ledger will be his nightmare-inducing portrayal of (in my opinion) the most terrifying villain of all time. disagree? watch below:
i guess i'm still more shocked than anything. shocked at the fact that he kept a serious drug addiction under raps for so long, and all anyone could say was that he dressed like a hobo. why is it that we can sit and force Lindsay Lohan and Amy Winehouse into rehab, but Heath Ledger is fine because he's still doing good work? do we really, really still live in a time when young, talented people die of drug overdoses? i thought that ended with the eighties. but i guess history really is cyclical, and how many more people are gonna have to die before we start trying a little harder to find something in life that's better than addiction? because that's really what it gets down to: it's not so much that "drugs are bad" cos we know drugs are bad, we just don't give a shit cos we've yet to find anything better to fill that void.
anyway, i'm deeply saddened by Heath Ledger's passing, so much so that i'm more than a little embarrassed by it. i've leaned on the superficial things, like "i guess there won't be a Joker spinoff of The Dark Knight!" or "he's gonna get that Oscar for sure next time!" or "fuuuuck that new Gilliam movie was looking really good, too!" but in all honesty i'm troubled by something i still can't put my finger on, in all this. when people were giving him shit for his Oscar nod, i defended him without even having seen the film. why? no idea. could have been a dozen reasons, but i can't think of them now. for some reason, i had so much respect for Heath Ledger and it was something i never did understand.
i'm still pinching myself, hoping this will all have been a dream.
EDIT: Defamer pointed out how chilling the Dark Knight trailer is now. maybe this is a large part of why this information is so hard to process: the last we'll see of Heath Ledger will be his nightmare-inducing portrayal of (in my opinion) the most terrifying villain of all time. disagree? watch below:
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