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so today. was okay i guess. i'm just in a blank mood. i don't want to smile at anyone. i want to avoid making eye contact with me so they won't try to talk to me. if i see that someone notices i'm alive i immediately bow my head down to prevent anything more than their acknowledgement of my presence. i don't really want to talk to very many people.
of course, people at school know what happened. eh, i don't really care. and i surely do not care to learn what the rumors are. they can stay the way they are. besides, from what i did hear, they sound much more interesting. i got shot in the arm by the cop AND i went to prison. :D
in my health class the teacher was calling roll and she said jessye beasley. ha ha. we would have been in the same class. yeah. i'm so glad she's not at rhs anymore. not in a revengeful way. i just couldn't deal with seeing her.
since i don't have a key to my house anymore i'm going to be going directly to the gym..either by bus or with the help of a ride from a friend. oh well. i almost always go..this way i will get it down and out of the way and be able to come home and get my homework done and relax. it will work out for the best, right?
i walked to whole foods after school today in the freezing cold. but it was refreshing. i relaxed, ate a muffin, and my dad eventually came and picked me up and bought me a smoothie.
and here i sit. doing "homework" ;)
last night i couldn't sleep at all. i woke up in a sweat from a nightmare around 2:30. burning up. so i threw my huge bear stuffed animal thing (it's like as big as a midget haha) on the other side of the bed and got out of the sheets and flipped. i couldn't go back to sleep for a long time. i felt like someone was going to come that had gone to my party and they were gonna shoot all through my window and kill me. i don't know why. i just..i don't know. they might be mad if the police call them or something. who knows. eeh =\
maybe update later..? <3
of course, people at school know what happened. eh, i don't really care. and i surely do not care to learn what the rumors are. they can stay the way they are. besides, from what i did hear, they sound much more interesting. i got shot in the arm by the cop AND i went to prison. :D
in my health class the teacher was calling roll and she said jessye beasley. ha ha. we would have been in the same class. yeah. i'm so glad she's not at rhs anymore. not in a revengeful way. i just couldn't deal with seeing her.
since i don't have a key to my house anymore i'm going to be going directly to the gym..either by bus or with the help of a ride from a friend. oh well. i almost always go..this way i will get it down and out of the way and be able to come home and get my homework done and relax. it will work out for the best, right?
i walked to whole foods after school today in the freezing cold. but it was refreshing. i relaxed, ate a muffin, and my dad eventually came and picked me up and bought me a smoothie.
and here i sit. doing "homework" ;)
last night i couldn't sleep at all. i woke up in a sweat from a nightmare around 2:30. burning up. so i threw my huge bear stuffed animal thing (it's like as big as a midget haha) on the other side of the bed and got out of the sheets and flipped. i couldn't go back to sleep for a long time. i felt like someone was going to come that had gone to my party and they were gonna shoot all through my window and kill me. i don't know why. i just..i don't know. they might be mad if the police call them or something. who knows. eeh =\
maybe update later..? <3