depressed...
I find myself back here. It's been a while and things have been up and down, and not in a good way. Yes, I still have a boyfriend, but I'm not sure that this is what I want. I've been told by many that know him that I can do better. But I've dug myself in deep here, we got a house with the understanding that it would be for us and his son. Well, his son lives with grandma and just has a "dada" for convience and grandma sure takes advantage of that - but "dada" sure doesn't do anything to try to make a change. I'm unhappy to say the least. I want more of my relationship and have tried to get it with him and to no avail. I was told something today in reference to another subject, but I think it applies to so much more. "get used to it" When he said that to me he was playing.. but quickly turned into something else. I'm just depressed about a lot of things that couldv'e changed today and for the weekend.... but I guess I can only just sit here- drink another glass of wine, and hope that I fall asleep quickly.